Lily Allen is about four or five months pregnant, by my estimation. She got pregnant earlier this year after spending more than a year talking about getting pregnant and leaving the music business, and after a very public miscarriage back in 2008. Lily didn’t announce this pregnancy until about a month ago, and many assumed that she had waited beyond the first-trimester standard, just because she worried about having another miscarriage. It seems like those concerns were well-founded – Lily just opened up to a British publication about the complications that arose during the first months:

After suffering a miscarriage with her first pregnancy, Lily Allen‘s experience the second time around — she’s expecting a baby with boyfriend Sam Cooper — hasn’t been much easier.

“I came off the pill and, weirdly, a week later it happened. But then it was really difficult, I had complications,” the songstress, 25, reveals in The Sunday Times. “I had about a week and a half of really heavy bleeding and had to have lots of scans … I’ve been living in fear for the past three months.”

But not even health scares can deter Allen from wanting a family — a wish, she says, she’s had since childhood. “I’ve probably been saying it since I was seven!” she admits.

While her dreams may be finally coming true, the expectant mum insists she has no plans of combining her successful career — including a Grammy nomination — with her personal life.

“I don’t think it’s that much a part of me, to be honest,” she says of her decision to not tell her future children of her pop star days. “It’s something I’ve done, that I enjoyed doing, and I may go back to doing it in years to come, but I’ve got to believe that there is more.”

What will take center stage, then? Raising her kids in as normal and family-oriented environment as possible, Allen explains.

“It’s not that I didn’t enjoy my childhood, because I did, but I suppose I was always quite fascinated by how a normal family would operate,” she muses. “Because everyone I knew when I was growing up came from divorced parents. I do remember when I had my first proper boyfriend at 16, going to his parents’ house in Ireland and we all sat round had dinner together and I was really overwhelmed by the whole thing.”

[From People Magazine]

God, I actually feel for her. I can’t imagine going through that, and being so worried that something was going horribly wrong. But she seems to be doing better now – and her bump is growing by the day. Be safe, Lily.