Colin Farrell covers Details: ‘Life is apogee, apex, decline, life is death’

Colin Farrell covers the November issue of Details Magazine in support of his new film, Seven Psychopaths. I think it’s interesting how Colin chooses to support his films – since becoming sober, it’s almost like he can’t lie about the projects which he’s done which he thinks are total crap. For example, this Details article is moving, honest, powerful, sexy, fascinating and beautiful. And Colin has done that in support of a film he believes in, as opposed to Total Recall, which came out just a few months ago. He barely did any interviews for Total Recall. But he’ll give up the goods for Seven Psychopaths. Anyway, in case you couldn’t tell, I love this interview, and I would suggest everyone read the complete thing at Details. Colin discusses his sobriety and his early years in Hollywood with a great deal of brutal honesty and humility. Some highlights:

On his boozing: “The bottom line is I ended up miserable. I’d done enough of a job of flagrantly abandoning myself in a very loud and public way that I began to fall apart, you know? There was a time when I needed to do three or four films at once. It was the best place for me to hide.”

He’s gotten time since he stopped drinking: “Honestly. I’ve got eight hours a day now that I didn’t have before, when I was drinking every day for 18 years.”

Becoming a father to son James (now 8): “When I had James, I made a decision not to change. I literally said, ‘I’m not changing! I’m gonna be his friend!’ Like a f–king 28-year-old drug-addicted drunk friend is exactly what my 6-week-old son needs.” After two years of substance-fueled fatherhood, he thought, “Why am I resisting?”

On why he didn’t stop drinking before then: “That was a whole by-product of fame… There’s a form of expat guilt,” he says. “I feared people at home would think I’d changed. So my Irish accent got stronger in America. This was me coming in and going, ‘I don’t give a f–k!’ But, of course, not caring is a form of caring.”

His idea of keeping it real: “I wore the same f–king pair of boots for 10 years,” he recalls, laughing. “From Cape Town to Tibet to L.A. to Dublin without laces. The same f–king grubber boots that I bought for f–king 20 pounds in a market in London. Initially I wore them because I didn’t want to care about how I looked, and then they became my identity. They became my character. And then I wouldn’t wear anything else—the idea of it put the fear of God in me.”

Stupid money: “I’d fly over loads of uncles and aunties. I think the most I brought over at one time was 30 friends and family. ‘Cause the money back then was f–kin’ stupid, man! It was so stupid.”

Money, booze and self-fulfillment: “It’s very easy as someone who has in his life a certain amount of material wealth, but the best thing about fame is debunking it,” he says. “The best thing is that you get to go, ‘Oh s–t—I’ve just knocked a big one off my list and it does not lead to happiness.’ Inevitably it ends up back on the drugs and booze,” he says. “It’s such an energetic part of where I came from. It was part of my brand, and it’s hard for me to talk about the last 20 years and not have fame and addiction be a part of it. But it kind of does get old . . . ”

He used to be a serial liar: “Oh, I wouldn’t tell a truth all day,” he says flatly. “If I’d had chicken and beans for dinner, I’d tell you I had steak and potatoes. No purpose, just habit. The amount of energy you have to put in and the amount of lies you have to tell to keep a drug habit alive, it’s fairly significant. Your whole life is a lie.”

Embracing the unknowns. “Not knowing what the f–k I’m doing as a dad is huge,” he says happily. “I don’t know what I’m doing, and that’s a very liberating thing. You just go, ‘Oh look, there’s s–t on the floor.’ There’s actually sh-t on the floor—I have a picture of it on my phone. So what do you do? You clean it up, put a diaper on his ass, and that’s that. It’s just about being present for these guys.”

Life: “Life is change, life is evolution, growth . . . ” Farrell is saying. We were talking about love and the impermanence of everything, and this has set him off on one of his verbal flights, in which the words tumble out quickly and he seems to be performing a speech he’s writing in his mind as he goes. “Life is apogee, apex, decline, life is death—and everything else is open to discussion.”

Love and marriage: Farrell isn’t with either of the mothers of his sons, though everyone gets along. He was married once, to the British actress Amelia Warner. It lasted four glorious months. Or as he puts it: “I had a brief liaison with the notion of permanence.”

Being in a relationship: “I haven’t been in a relationship in a while,” he says. “Two and a half years since I was with Henry’s mother. If I ever do get involved with somebody again, I will try as much as possible to shut my f–king mouth and stay f–king present. Love in action, man! Not love in f–king words.”

When told that drinking and dalliances can be a kind of hedge against loneliness: “They’re not hedges so much as they are curtains,” he says without missing a beat. “Hedges are natural, curtains are manmade. And they work until they don’t.”

[From Details]

A lot of what Colin says is very much AA program-speak, and it’s strange/interesting to me that Colin is so invested in that mindset now, with six or seven years of sobriety under his belt. As I always say about him these days: he’s a better man. He has come to terms with the user he was, and he’s worked to improve himself consistently. I not only like him… I admire him.

Photos courtesy of Details.

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  1. ladybert62 says:

    I am impressed – with his total honesty about his past self and his wonderful articulate self!

    He has grown up and I like him.

  2. DreamyK says:

    I like this clean and sober Colin. His honesty about the time and energy he put into drugs and alcohol is refreshing because it is a full time job lying to yourself and everyone else to keep using and feel ok about it.

    • Skipper says:

      I find him fake. We will find out in a couple months that he’s on drugs.

      • Anna says:

        He has been sober for over 6 years. He’s commited to work and family. There was no suspicion that he may by on drugs/alcohol during these 6 years.

        So no, he isn’t fake.

      • carrie says:

        he works too much actually not to be sober
        after MIAMI VICE fiasco (rehab in the middle of the filming),he disapeared and now he does 3 movies per year
        maybe he won’t more the A list actor like before but he works well

      • Skipper says:

        He just talks it up too much

      • SpunkyPR says:

        That’s because he’s doing something no one in hollywood ever admits to, he’s done drugs and alcohol to the point where it ruined his life. Only rock stars talk openly about it but very rarely do you hear actors talking about it.

      • Heebeegeebee says:

        He sounds like he is still on something. Life is Death? Give me a break. Why can’t he speak like a normal person, without swearing, without a metaphor tumbling out of his mouth every 2 minutes. Yes he is Irish, but my relattives in Ireland don’t speak like that.

      • Justyna says:

        But your family members aren’t actors, I assume, and that’s a different story. He is probably spending more time on reading and working with movie scripts full of big speeches, metaphors and sentences like the one you mentioned, than speaking with regular people. And he often stars in movies with lots of swearing (like In Bruges – there were f and c-bombs in every other sentence). It has to stay in his head in some way, even unconsciously. It’s similar to the way the actors working with lots of out of age stories and Shakespeare plays tend to sound like English literature professors.

      • Minnie says:

        Skipper, he’s looking totally hot!

  3. diana says:

    He is MINE.
    *grrrr backoff everyone*

  4. Kim says:

    Really, he sounds like he just has a superficial veneer of brainwash over his same old self. “I had a brief liaison with the notion of permanence?” I don’t even know what he thinks he means by that?

    • Boxy Lady says:

      It means exactly what he said. He went into the marriage thinking it would be forever but it only lasted four months. And apparently he hasn’t been close to marrying anyone else.

    • melior says:

      Actually I loved his line! I think i’ll steal it. He’s a “f-ing” poet, isn’t he?

    • Jayna says:

      I loved that description of a four-month marriage.

  5. HotPockets says:

    He is so hot! My only celebrity crush.

  6. littlemissnaughty says:

    I like to watch him on screen, he has great presence and a raw quality.
    But, um … he talks a lot and it sounds like he put those druggie days behind him but I still have no idea who he is now. And I doubt that he knows either. It’s like he’s adopted all these life philosophies because they sound good but beyond that, no idea who the man is. Also, … “Henry’s mother”? I don’t know if I’m reading things into this but the woman has a name. It sounds like he’s putting as much distance between his past (however recent) and who he wants to be as he can.

    • HoneyBee says:

      Your read on this is spot on. The relationship with his ex’s isn’t that great, particularly Henry’s mother, Alicja.

      He has a history of NOT referring to his ex’s by name. Only occasionally will he call James mother by her name, Kim ~ and it’s always an after-thought.

      In the past year or so he and his “team” have been working hard to change his image. Tho I do think he is trying to improve himself, I’d caution against believing too much. Celebrity is all about spin.

  7. Messenger says:

    this is the second interview i’ve read of his and i really like him. he sounds smart and self-aware. drugs and other forms of self-abuse are just diversionary, until we gain the ego strength to look at ourselves. i am a fan of self-directed brutal honesty. to others we must be kind. team colin.

    • Amelia says:

      My brain is too knackered after the day I’ve had to properly comprehend the article or your comment.
      But nevertheless; +1

  8. TheOriginalKitten says:

    Funny, I saw him on Ellen and thought he seemed so much more sweet and mature (always thought he was a huge douche) but I didn’t realize it was because he was sober-I just thought he had grown up.

    I think it’s great he got his sh*t together but seeing the difference in his attitude then and now just reminds me how effed up alcoholism is. It’s incredible how alcohol seems to alter not only people’s behavior, but progressively changes who they are on a fundamental level. Scary stuff…..

    • Kimbob says:

      Hey @TheOriginalKitten, I found your comment to be very well thought out & astute. I love Colin Farrell & he is, like myself, an alcoholic in recovery.

      Since I’ve been in recovery, I’ve “discovered” that much of recovery involves a process called growing up…something that I avoided for years & years.

      To me, what the program teaches is integral and necessary, but if I had to distill what I’ve learned in the rooms of AA so far, I’d say much of what I’ve gleaned involves “growing up.” And this is what I gathered from reading this write-up, as well.

      I just thought your comment was very honest & sincere & felt moved to respond to you.

  9. silken_floss says:

    He needs to make another sex tape, preferably with me *evil grin*

    • MeMyself says:

      Silken_Floss

      You will have to get in line behind my friend Karen. She’s in deep, never seen such a celeb crush.

  10. effy says:

    Admirable collin, you’ve grown up quite well.

  11. Ginger says:

    OMG! As a two and a half years sober person myself I am so much more enamored of him now! I’ve always found him to be sexy but now I also see him as honest and intelligent. That first photo has my lady parts singing! LOL! Thanks for posting and I think I’m going to definitely read the whole article. I saw a preview of the film on Chelsea Lately (and an interview with Sam Rockwell…yum!) and it looks fantastic!

  12. Nan209 says:

    I used to dislike him and couldn’t understand the attention and adulation he received. I noticed that he was gone from movies and was relieved to not be subjected to unnecessary hype.

    Since he has sobered up and worked on himself, and not giving the audience the middle finger, I noticed that his acting actually improved a great deal. Acting is about being present in the moment and it would seem that Mr. Farrell is finally present. I actually enjoy seeing him in movies now. I hope he continues to improve his life.

  13. car54 says:

    I think having a child with health problems was a huge wake up for him.

    He’s going to need support and care in his life and it really seems like Colin wants to be there for him.

  14. lisa2 says:

    Very nice interview and he looks great on the cover.

    I never get why fans or others say they miss a celeb when he or she were in some dark self destructive time in their lives. Because they find them “boring” being healthy and present in your life is not boring. It is growing up

    BRAVO COLIN.

  15. Moi says:

    He’s doing really well it seems. Good for him! I couldn’t help but feel that I would like to jump on him in that first pic. Yum!

  16. JamTeezy says:

    GET IN MY PANTS COLIN

  17. Phil E Stein says:

    It’s good that he’s overcome his addictions. It’ll be even better when he overcomes the 12 Step BS.

  18. LittleDeadGirl says:

    I love him again. My crush started to wane but he came back and I loved the interview. It was smart and honest. You can finally see the transition from a child … a rebel/addict … to an adult.

  19. dooliloo says:

    Well… That was f—ing deep!!!

  20. Jayna says:

    Great interview. I love him. He was an amazing actor who was on top of the world careerwise and who imploded and really hurt his career. I still remember the Telephone Booth movie. Who can carry most of the movie in a telephone booth with lots of monologue? He could and brilliantly. I always heard a movie called Bruges something was excellent and I never saw it.

    That is a great, I mean, great photo. Much less posy/artsy as the other actors do. More like he really looks in bed. Yummm.

  21. Joanna says:

    HE IS SOOO SEXY!!!