Kesha on her ‘dark place’: now ‘I don’t pay attention to the Internet or bloggers’


Kesha has a new profile in Vogue, and she shows off her freckles in a lovely photo that you can see here (it’s actually a reprint of her recent Teen Vogue cover). I believe Kesha’s ramping up to release new music soon. She promised as much in January, but doesn’t have a release date for her third album yet. She’s undoubtedly preoccupied with Dr. Luke’s legal shenanigans. He filed a countersuit after she sued him for sexual assault and abuse.

For over a year, Kesha has been rebuilding her life following an early 2014 rehab stint after Dr. Luke fat-shamed her and she developed an eating disorder. She has been hinting at a softer image for her future, instead of the party-girl persona she once embraced. Here are some excerpts from Vogue:

Freckles now win over makeup: “I really wanted to make a change–be more raw and real. I wanted to be more confident in myself–embrace every inch of my body–not try to cover up with makeup.”

The effect of sudden fame: “All of a sudden I had all of these fans, but also [just as many] critics.” Her swaggering artist persona, glam rock hair, and “Alice Cooper”–inspired makeup, all designed to celebrate personal freedom, were polarizing. The backlash came from every direction–hackers, bloggers, even a colleague–and their daggers cut deep. “Slowly but surely my self esteem [started to] deteriorate.”

Her eating disorder: “I’ve had a lot of ups and downs. It’s been quite a journey. I went to a dark place. There was a lot of not eating–and I started to think being hungry to the point of feeling almost faint was a positive thing. The worse it got, the more positive feedback I was getting. Inside I was really unhappy, but outside, people were like, ‘Wow, you look great.’”

She stays off the internet now: “Part of being healthy is being positive. I don’t pay attention to the Internet or bloggers. I surround myself with positive people. I run a few miles on the beach every day, and I got into Transcendental Meditation to try to find some peace in my crazy life. [It reminds me] to be grateful for where I am, for my body, and my face–as imperfect as any of it may be.”

Her beauty regrets: Do you mean the gold tooth I had removed? No, I look back lovingly because I was having so much fun [with hair and makeup]. There was a time I went on the red carpet with a Mohawk, but I’ll probably never do that again. And before I went on stage I used to pour beer on my body [as an adhesive] then roll in a bathtub full of glitter. I don’t do that anymore because it irritated my skin.”

[From Vogue]

I understand Kesha’s reasons for wanting to avoid the internet and blogs after what she went through. She can avoid Dr. Luke without much of a problem, other than what’s going on between their attorneys. But she’s still in a fragile state, so it makes sense that she’d want to avoid any possible body shaming from strangers (or familiars). Eating disorders can be persistent, so anything that Kesha can do to stay healthy is a plus.

Here’s a photo from last summer that shows Kesha’s gold tooth. I’m glad she removed it!



Photos courtesy of Fame/Flynet & WENN

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  1. teatimeiscoming says:

    I actually really like her music, and I like the interviews she gives. I hope she continues to get better and move towards healing. Good luck to her.

  2. ISee says:

    She’s got herself a pretty great stylist these days. Glad she’s on the mend :)

    • Detritus says:

      Everything is awesome about that last outfit. I want every single piece and I’m now even thinking I could pull off that lippy.

    • Shambles says:

      ITA, She looks so fierce in that last photo. Amazing in general, lately. Go Kesha :D Everyone deserves a new leaf!

    • Suzy from Ontario says:

      I agree! She looks the best I’ve ever seen her in all those pics above! Good for her!

  3. GoodNamesAllTaken says:

    I think freckles are pretty. I’m sorry so many women think they have to cover them up.

    • EEV says:

      I’m one of those people who freckles (everywhere) at the mere hint of sun. I’ve never tried to cover them up and never understood anyone who would want to – they’re fun and different! :-)

    • Bob Loblaw says:

      I have tons of freckles, I would have to coat myself in layers of makeup to hide them, and my skin is too sensitive, most makeup makes me break out, so I am freckled and spotted, oh well.

  4. Naddie says:

    She really should flaunt her freckles because they look awesome. I was one of many who hated her persona, and although I still think she’s talentless, I’m happy about her positive path.

    • WR says:

      Kesha wouldn’t be one of the few popstars who is successful with critics if she wasn’t talented. She can sing, write songs and play instruments. She’s a great performer. Songs like The Harold Song and Past Lives prove how incredibly talented she is.

      • Naddie says:

        Her voice is nothing major, her performance either. Fiona Apple, Janelle Monaé, Christina Aguilera are incredibly talented.

    • ava7 says:

      So I wonder if she’s still wear full-on satanic clothing and symbols and sing about dying young?

  5. snowflake says:

    I really like Kesha. I think she got a lot of criticism because she didn’t look like the typical pop tart you saw in the music business. I think she’s attractive though and I can’t imagine going through being homeless, hitting it big, and then have to deal with criticism about you look. Hope she makes a full recovery

  6. lemon says:

    Some of the most savage blogs and comments I’ve read have been of her bikini papped pics. Good for her for tuning that shit out.

  7. QQ says:

    She looks pretty great and sounds like she is prioritizing self care, good for her

  8. Maya says:

    Since she confessed on a talk show that a spirit/dead women lives in her vagina, I am over with her. I mean, this craziness blows me off.

    • WR says:

      Would you be over her if she said she believed in God or faith healing? It’s amazing that we tolerate or even respect some supernatural beliefs but think others are crazy. She was raised with hippie-like spiritual beliefs, so it’s not crazy to her.

  9. Bridget says:

    I don’t blame her. The internet has been incredibly harsh towards Kesha, and I’ve never really understood why.

    • Bob Loblaw says:

      The Internet is a harsh place full of mean people who have nothing to restrain them from being awful. I’ve played a lot of on-line games and met a lot of people and there are a lot of nasty people who love that anonymity. There are plenty of nice people too but many people use internet anonymity to behave horribly towards other people. They know they can get away with it and face no consequences for their bad behavior. Shun them under one name and they’ll pop up under a new one. Almost every game now has an “ignore” option so you can turn trolls and stalkers off, they’re everywhere on-line, immature twits running amok.

  10. lisa says:

    that last dress is killing me, i need it

    she came off really well on that singing tv show where she judged people w josh groban, cant remember the name

  11. WR says:

    She can’t release new music until her lawsuit is settled. Dr. Luke is the head of her record label. There won’t be any new music until she breaks her contract with him, which may happen this year, next year or 2017 depending on how long it takes her case to move through the courts.

  12. Sofia says:

    I like her but just like Lady Gaga, I felt that tons of makeup, crazy hair and clothing was just a way of hiding. Many people do that, it’s like a safe blanket and when it’s not there any more you have to deal with what you see and face and it usually has nothing to do with looks, it goes much deeper than that. I really hope she finds her way.

  13. kri says:

    I am seriously rooting for her.Not sure why..but go Kesha!

  14. Lucy says:

    Glad to see she’s doing well!! And she looks great. I really like her!

  15. Veronica says:

    I was always fond of Kesha. I hope she pulls it together and is able to move forward in a healthy way.

  16. Sopha says:

    I am not a Kesha fan, but I am extremely happy that she got help and is willing to talk about it. Hopefully, she is in a much better place now. Though I kind of side-eye some of her allegations against Dr Luke, well maybe not the allegations but the timing. She wants creative control now, so it’s very convenient all this abuse stuff is being brought out. Not that I think Dr Luke is an angel, but the stuff about not speaking to his wife when he found out she is was pregnant to make her get an abortion – seriously? And forcing her to do drugs, I mean peer pressure is alive and well but you can’t force someone to inhale coke, can you?

    Anyway, I also think she is a bit foolish to break away from Luke. I have read some of her interviews and I think what she wants to produce now would be a mess … I think if she took control of her musical direction now, it would be the end of her. But then again, two people working together who hate each other would also be a mess.