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Amy Winehouse has not spent the past few days following her drug overdose at a rehab, as was previously reported. She was said to have checked into the Priory clinic on Thursday, but those reports are false. As Jaybird mentioned on Friday, she has been at the Four Seasons hotel in Hook, Hants England ever since she was released from the hospital following a drug and alcohol overdose on Wednesday that made her collapse in seizures.

She is said to be vomiting and unable to keep food down following her medical scare. What’s worse is that Amy supposedly thinks she will die young.

Last night a family friend said: “Amy has told her mum she is often suicidal and she knows she will die young.

“Janis [Amy’s mom] and the rest of the family persuaded Amy to go to the hotel to recover after her overdose. They hope that by getting her out of the scene around Camden she will be able to see what she is doing to herself.

“But Amy is determined that she will NOT go to rehab…”

Amy’s dad Mitch is demanding minders protect Amy 24 hours a day so she can’t get access to drugs. He also wants her record label to scrap tour commitments for the rest of the year.

[From The Sun]

And Amy and her husband, layabout Blake Fielder-Civil, were seen drinking at the hotel.

Amy’s friends are rumored to dislike Blake and to widely believe he is dragging her down. He is the only person who is able to get through to her, they claim.

News of the World has a bunch of exclusive quotes from Amy who supposedly talked to the rag while she was eating breakfast alone on Saturday. These quotes are too effusive and revealing to be true:

Sitting alone at breakfast yesterday Amy told us: “It was just crazy—one of the most terrifying moments of my life.

“I don’t know how to explain what happened. I don’t really know myself.

“I can’t remember what I looked like. I couldn’t recognise myself. It was terrifying—I was terrified.

“I was so out of control. It just happened. It shocked me. I’m sorry—I just don’t know what got into me.”

Wearing black shorts and a T-shirt and without her trademark beehive hairdo or black make-up, Amy, 23, said: “I never want to feel that way again.

“I’ve scared myself this time. I was all over the place. I know things have got to change. I have to sort myself out.”

Picking at a croissant, the painfully skinny star then put on a brave face and said: “I’m fine. I’ll be back at work on Monday. I’m fine, honest.”

[From News of the World]

While earlier reports had Amy injesting a cocktail of drugs including coke, pills, ketamine and various booze that led up to her overdose, The Sun adds smoking heroin to that deadly list.

At least Amy has been seen by doctors and a psychiatrist since checking into a hotel instead of rehab. She must have been serious about the lyrics in her hit song, and I hope it won’t lead to damage that is impossible to reverse, even if Amy is dead-set on it. Do you think there is hope for her? She seems like she’s incredibly stubborn, but I bet if someone could convince her to clean up she could do it with the same conviction with which she’s going down the tubes.