Fergie opens up about her crystal meth addiction: ‘I was hallucinating daily’

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One of the music industry’s worst-kept secrets back in the aughts was former Black Eyed Peas singer Fergie’s use of crystal meth. Fergie, 42, has been open for years about her past addiction and treatment, which occurred during her days with girl group Wild Orchid. She’s now going into more detail about what she went through and it sounds harrowing.

Fergie is still out promoting her first solo album in 11 years, Double Dutchess, which was released in September. The first single, “M.I.L.F.$”, meant to be pronounced “MILF Money” was released last July with a video featuring Kim Kardashian, Ciara and Chrissy Teigen. As part of her promotional rounds, she spoke with England’s iNews, where the discussion turned to her former addiction. She admitted that in the thick of her drug use she had horrible hallucinations. “At my lowest point, I was [suffering from] chemically induced psychosis and dementia. I was hallucinating on a daily basis. It took a year after getting off that drug for the chemicals in my brain to settle so that I stopped seeing things. I’d just be sitting there, seeing a random bee or bunny.” She said her rock bottom moment came after she feared she was being tracked by the CIA, FBI and a SWAT and attempted to hide out in a church. She recalled:

“They tried to kick me out, because I was moving down the aisles in this crazy way, as I thought there was an infrared camera in the church trying to check for my body. I bolted past the altar into a hallway and two people were chasing me. “I remember thinking: ‘If I walk outside, and the SWAT team’s out there, I was right all along. But if they’re not out there, then it’s the drugs making me see things and I’m going to end up in an institution. And if it really is the drugs, I don’t want to live my life like this any more, anyway.’ I walked out of the church; obviously there was no SWAT team, it was just me in a parking lot. It was a freeing moment.

“The drugs thing, it was a hell of a lot of fun… until it wasn’t. But you know what, I thank the day it happened to me. Because that’s my strength, my faith, my hope for something better.”

[From iNews]

Fergie previously shared the church story with Oprah Winfrey back in 2012. During that interview, she said she turned to drugs when she “didn’t know how to deal” with her desire to break away from her Wild Orchid bandmates and launch a solo career. She first tried ecstasy, which was quickly replaced by meth. After about a year on the drugs, she had her paranoia-induced church freakout and credited God for helping her get clean.

Although Fergie is off drugs now, she’s said in the past that she does still drink alcohol. Some people pointed out that’s she’s behaved unusually on talk shows recently, including a slightly slurry appearance on Bravo’s Watch What Happens Live back in September.

There’s also her Kayne West-esque stage crashing during Sunday night’s Trevor Project gala on Sunday night, where the singer interrupted Armie Hammer on stage while he was presenting the organization’s Hero Award to Tom Ford. The fiasco looked awkward as hell and Fergie’s on stage rambling and vaguely out of it demeanor had some wondering if she’d been drinking. One of Fergie’s reps told PEOPLE that the whole thing was a pre-planned joke that the crowd didn’t find funny, stating, “It was a gag that everyone at the table came up with that fell flat due to timing.” Ummm…okay.

Fergie is going through a lot right now, especially her recent split from Josh Duhamel after eight years of marriage. Pair that with an album that Fergie needs to sell well, and that’s a lot of pressure. I hope she can get through this ok. I’m not a fan of her music, but I also hate to see anyone in pain. Stay strong, Fergie.

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  1. Clare says:

    Man, I wish her nothing but the best in her continued sobriety – but she seemed a tad unstable recently. It’s sad, and I hope she is getting the help she needs as she goes through her split…

  2. laulau says:

    Your last paragraph is my exact thoughts about this.

    I was surprised when I heard her speak recently for the first time as I had assumed she had a southern accent? Weird.

  3. Nanny to the Rescue says:

    I hope all will be well for her.

    Is it just me or does she look a bit like Kirstie Alley?

  4. Onerous says:

    This is a total nitpick, but why does her face always look dirty? Like, she’s a lovely woman, I assume she’s having her makeup professionally applied at least sometimes… but it always looks like yesterday’s makeup.

    Anyhow – I do hope that she gets all the help and support she needs.

  5. Embee says:

    I really feel for her. She and Josh were together for a long time even before their marriage and losing that partnership must be incredibly destabilising. Add to that the pressures of a new project and a young child…

    I think it’s good that she is sharing about her amphetamine-induced psychosis and how long it took to rectify. My ex husband abused prescription amphetamines and was actively psychotic for years, to the point I had to obtain a protective order.

    So, I hope she has friends and a support system to help her get and stay sober because she has a LOT to live for and she has a lot of talent to share.

  6. tekla says:

    I got addicted to amphetamines and I had hallucinations for a good 1,5 year after I got clean. It was mostly auditory, but still insufferable. I was hearing a bunch of different “people” with different characters talking to me at once. With help from a good psychiatrist I went back to normal. I really feel for Fergie, psychosis is a real b*tch.

  7. Lucy says:

    Umm who ?

  8. Lila says:

    I saw the TrevorLive video. She was CLEARLY on something. The claims it was a joke are just damage control. How long until she’s back in rehab?

    • MM says:

      I think she fell off the wagon…she lost a lot of weight recently. I hope I’m wrong.

    • Ember says:

      She was higher than a kite and it wasn’t alcohol. Painful to watch. Her people tried to pull the video as quickly as they could.

  9. Bridget says:

    That is really serious stuff, and part of the issue with Fergie’s drinking is that it never really seemed like she truly addressed the issues that fed into her addiction. That video? The only way it was staged is if a bunch of drunk people came up with it, and her people were not happy that it got posted to YouTube (they tried to have it removed).

  10. Happy21 says:

    She used to be so pretty! Now she just looks like a washed up 50 year old woman. She reminds me of women from my small town who at 40 decided to be ‘hawt’ but still look haggard under all the make up, hair dye and tans.
    That being said, 11 years is a long time for a pop start to go without an album I’d have to say that most of her demographic have likely moved on. I loved her first solo album but after that can’t say I did…
    I’m rooting for her though and hope that whatever is going on with her, she pulls it together.

  11. Amanda says:

    It’s not a “worst kept secret”, she never hid it. Please edit better, I love the site and inaccurate wording makes it difficult to read.

  12. Henny In My Hand says:

    I’m rooting for her! She has always had a sexy vibe about her. She still looks very fit and attractive, and her new music sounds decent, but I think she’s going through a rough time. I hope she doesn’t relapse. I do admire her for speaking truthfully about the details of her addiction.