I have a few Lindsay Lohan stories for you today. Would you like to start in chronological order? Sure. Let’s do that. In this week’s Star Mag (via Radar), Lindsay’s (ex) drug dealer “tells all” about her drug buying habits and how much money she spent (spends?) on blow and Molly (ecstasy) and lots of pills. I have to wonder how Star Mag got in touch with LL’s drug dealer, but really… wouldn’t you be doing lines if you worked at Star? That would probably explain a lot about some of their stories, actually.
Lindsay Lohan still has another two months in rehab at the Betty Ford Center, and a man claiming to be her drug dealer claims the troubled starlet will not be reformed when she emerges later this summer.
“Lindsay still wants to party,” David ‘DJ’ Joseph told Star magazine in an exclusive interview. “But she feels going to rehab saves face in the eyes of the public.”
DJ claims that as Lindsay’s longtime drug dealer, he saw her use cocaine many more times than just the “four or five times” she told Piers Morgan she’d done the drug.
“I saw her take a bump more than that when she tested out my deliveries,” he said. “It is another example of how much denial she is in.”
Lindsay shelled out $10,000 to $15,000 on coke and Molly, or extra-pure pharmaceutical ecstasy, during the time DJ dealt for her, he says — so much that he finally had to cut her off.
“Lindsay wasn’t monitoring what she was taking, and there were lots of enablers around, so I had to walk away,” he told the mag. “I feared she would do a line of coke after some pills and then be dead … I am not in the business of helping people kill themselves.”
For more on DJ’s dealings with Lindsay and the horrifying scenes he witnessed in her hotel room, pick up the latest copy of Star, on newsstands Thursday.
DJ also told Star that he started selling to her in 2009 and she would “order blow and pills” by texting him with an address in Beverly Hills or a suite number at the Chateau Marmont. DJ said: “Ninety percent of the time, Lindsay would be drunk. Her favorite was Molly… she liked that before she went out to a club.” The number “$15,000” keeps getting thrown around, but I’m not sure what it means. LL spent $15,000 each time she bought from him? Or she only spent that much in, like, a month? Because blow isn’t cheap. I would imagine $15,000 would probably get Lindsay through a week, tops.
Meanwhile, Lindsay is still having a hard time with one of her “legal” addictions, Adderall. The Betty Ford Clinic doctors took her Adderall away from her and LL has been in a state of cracktastrophe ever since. Now Radar’s sources claim that LL has already proclaimed that she’s definitely going back on Adderall as soon as she gets the hell out of there:
Lindsay Lohan is telling close friends that once she is released from Betty Ford she plans on taking Adderall again, even though the starlet’s rehab doctors took her off the medication, RadarOnline.com is exclusively reporting.
“She has been a bitch on wheels,” the source said of Lilo since she stopped taking the Adderall.
“Lindsay is hell bent on getting a refill of her Adderall as soon she leaves Betty Ford. The medication she has been taking for her ADD isn’t working, and she’s constantly complaining about it. Lindsay doesn’t care what the doctors at Betty Ford say about the dangers of Adderall.
The source went on to exclusively tell Radar, “She has no chance of staying sober if she starts taking the Adderall again because it’s an amphetamine based drug. For an addict like Lindsay, it’s a trigger for her to use other drugs.”
Do you think Adderall would “trigger” Lindsay? Or do you think her “trigger” is simply “being Lindsay”? Like, I have no doubt that she’ll go refill her Adderall prescription immediately. In between vodka shots and lines. Don’t get me wrong, I’m enjoying the fact that LL is being “punished” in some small way by having her Adderall taken away, but let’s not pretend that she won’t relapse within minutes of leaving Betty Ford.
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“The medication she has been taking for her ADD isn’t working.”
That’s what happens when you medicate for an illness you don’t have.
Why can’t she just run away from Betty Ford and get a prison sentence á la Amber Portwood. She desperately needs it.
She needs that prison sentence to save what’s left of her brain. If Molly is her favorite drug, her brain already looks like swiss cheese.
Actually, MDMA doesn’t put holes in your brain. You are citing erroneous “facts” from a study that was full of laughable errors (poor dosing, mislabeled drugs). If you don’t believe me, check out LeVay’s “When Science Goes Wrong” – there’s a story about that study in his book.
Media coverage of scientific research is such that almost nobody gets the facts straight. It would be laughable if it weren’t so sad.
Maybe Abra was just saying her brain isn’t literally swiss cheese, but parts of it are so damaged she’ll never be what she was? I can’t say I’ve ever come across any MDMA reports saying it turned your brain into “swiss cheese”.
Nerd Alert
Media coverage is horrible:( Just take the big “Vaccinations cause Autism” bit. Just enough time from the start has passed so 1st graders all caught whooping cough (Pertussis). And that vaccination hurts! *rubs arm
@Anon, I was under the impression that Molly is not quite the same as MDMA, and although MDMA use is not without consequences, those associated with Molly are even more serious.
Since when does prison make anyone well? C’mon kids, get in your jail cell…it’s good for you!
It woke Robert Downey Junior up.
Ok. One dude. Now wake ME up when that becomes a trend.
The real question is “Since when is the court system there to help you handle your personal issues?”. Her crimes had NOTHING to do with drugs or alcohol. She was in court because she was on probation for stealing, and violated that probation by getting into an accident and lying to cops.
Rehab was totally unwarranted in this case. She should be in jail. Yes, she has substance issues, but they were not related to the crimes she is being punished for.
Tiffany- my bet is that they had good reason to believe she wasn’t sober during the crash. No other reason to lie about driving except to avoid testing at least long enough for something to get below legal limits. They also knew that in LA, it would be easier to keep her off the streets for a while in rehab be ause of the sheriff and laws intended to prevent overcrowding.
They made a deal with her, she goes to rehab, she pays for it, she’s off the streets and the state is spared the expense and hassle of locking her up.
I want to see what her face looks like now that she hasnt been able to get fillers for a few weeks (has it been that long?).
No matter how cracked out,crazy, and selfish Lindsay seems to be, it sad that when she leaves rehab she wont have a single level-headed person to be there for her…
Ooh, I hadn’t thought about that!
Now I too am curious to see if her face reverts to its previous semblance.
Dear DJ,
No kidding!
Sincerely,
The World
lol!
LMAO!
Wow a drug dealer that stopped dealing because his client was buying too much…..
He has a heart of gold, doesn’t he?
Yeah, I legit LOL’d when I got to that part. Suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurrrre, buddy. Sure that happened.
Stopped paying is more like it, so he’s recouping some of the loss by selling the story to Star. My guess anyway.
I like your guess… She’s not known for paying her debts.
Actually, it does happen…I’m a harm reduction counselor and I’ve had many dealers come in to get help for their clients but usually because the client is getting desperate and using other drugs that are made with god knows what. Bad drugs can give a dealer a bad reputation, so its actually in their best interest to cut a client off or send them to a harm reduction counselor where they are educated and taught how to do drugs in a safer way. It sounds counterintuitive, but its a model of empowerment. For dealers, its true, death is very bad for business if they’re branding their product, and makes it easier for police to track them.
Yeah drug dealers are well know for their compassion for their clients.
I think her trigger is child abuse related.
Yeah, probably a whole lot of repressed emotional pain comes out when she’s sober.
The dealer didn’t give a shit about her but didn’t want to get arrested because of her stupidity. And because he ain’t the Krakken, he’d go straight to the hoosegow.
That’s how I’m reading it, too. He saw a potential OD and didn’t want to get nailed for dealing to her.
All of that. Boy wasn’t stupid.
That’s what happened to Belushi’s dealer.
He says she’s in rehab to “save face”. Um…. I’m pretty sure she’s there because its court-ordered and she would be sitting in jail if she left rehab.
Anyway this does not surprise anyone.
I think Lindsay believes she complied to save face. I really do think that in her head she believes she could have gotten out of it, but would have looked so bad, so she made the “decision” to go to rehab. She’s crazy.
Does she have any face left to save?
Not any of her own god given face thats for sure!
Yeah she wants to protect her reputation because she is well known for being a hard worker or is it hardly working? I get those two confused.
he’s not “in the business of helping people kill themselves.” nice rationalization there, dude. you are a drug dealer, you ARE helping people kill themselves. say that when one of your customers overdoses.
Exactly what I thought when I read that line.
Yes, I thought that was quite ridiculous too.
what a load of BS, not that she’s an addict but this person cut her off because they *care*.
long term adderall abuse brings with it a special effect on the face. she’ll definitely be needing fillers and cheek implants if she plans on using it indefinitely.
i blame fez and paris stilton. fire crotch days did a doozy on her. j/k
seriously, her *parents* -she never stood a chance. sad to think they passed her around like tissue at a funeral.
lindsay’s ‘trigger’ is her g*dam* FINGER!’trigger finger’ meaning she’ll consume anything she can get her chipped manicure hands on….
I say we all start a Lilo ‘Cracked Out Meltdown’ watch the second she gets outta rehab and i mean, by the minute and the seconds!
I place first dibs on early AM hours of the following day around 4.35AM she is tossed out on the floor of some LA club and ends up getting literally mopped out the back door by the hands of the janitor/cleaning crew
I will not be surprised at all if she ends up in the ER once she’s let loose. I fully expect her to start choking down pills and booze and snorting anything she can get her nostrils on within five minutes of release.
Sadly, I don’t think she’s long for this world. A human body can’t sustain all of this…although Keith Richards managed it somehow.
I guess the fact that we all use Keith Richards as an example proves he is the exception. The rule is most head six feet under. I’ve often wondered if there is anything to the “27 club”? I guess it makes some sense since the body is not nearly as resilient at 30 as it was at 18. I don’t mean with drugs, at 18 I could eat or drink pretty much anything without consequence. Now? Not so much.
Keith Richards in his autbiography is quite clear about his drug abuse past. He says he was addicted to pure medical heroin, which was quite different from the heroin around now, and according to him this is what has saved him, plus the fact that he used to have a great control on how much he was doing.
He also says he has never touched things like molly, because he finds it scaring.
I think I believe him, he is still alive.
Btw at a certain point he got clean, and still is now.
(sort of I think)
Didn’t he also, at least once, have all the blood in his body replaced? Or is that an urban legend?
People can be a long term heroin addicts not so much with other drugs that are far more destructive to the body.
Questions!!!
What does “bump” and “Molly” mean in the world of drugs? I’m too naive about street lingo.
@FLORC my question exactly. Never heard of a “bump” or “molly”. Pretty proud of that fact.
I believe Molly is Ecstasy. I have no idea what bump is.
Bump is a line of coke, and Molly is pharmaceutical ecstasy, it is a club drug that affects your serotonin levels, part hallucinogenic, part amphetamine.
I’ve done Molly before…at a club. My cousin handed it to me and said, “Herr, take this if you want to have a good time.” I trust her so I took it and boy did I have a grrreeaat time that night. When you’re on Molly it feels like the best night of your freakin life. Everything is funny…it’s like giggling when high times 1,000. We were those annoying people at the Waffle House at 2 am laughing hysterically and acting like straight fools. It wasn’t until the morning after that my dear cousin was like, wow, that was good Molly. Sometimes coming down from the high is painful and depressing. Would I take it again? Probably not. Not sure how one could function in society if they were taking it regularly. Oh wait, Lindsay doesn’t function in society.
If you put coke in a little mountain or “bump”, it’s easier to snort in a line because cocaine raises your heart rate and breathing. Taking a long, deep breath is harder for some people when they’re high. It also makes the coke last longer.
Molly is just E (ravers screaming “Has anyone seen Molly?”).
Funny part is, never done anything in my life besides drink. Usually I ended up cleaning up people’s messes in college e.g. making sure they didn’t die in my dorm. There was such a high attrition rate that just about everyone was on something, be it Addys all the way up to coke. I instead realized I wasn’t going to be Carl Sagan and just simply graduated w/o honors.
Serious question from an old: are raves really still a thing? I remember them from the 90’s but I didn’t think the youngins did that anymore.
Yeah just now it’s mixed with dubstep. People have lost the whole PLUR thing and now it’s “show up half naked, take molly, stand in front of rawlers, and hook up”.
Huh! Thanks for the info and 1st hand accounts from everyone. Ecstasy sounds like more trouble than it’s worth.
LiLo needs to be locked up or she’ll never get clean. Rehab will stick as well as all the other times.
you guys really are out of the loop.
I live in Nyc where the drug scene is big. There is no dubstep and there are amazing parties all the time in brooklyn mostly with very talented djs and most of the people have well paying jobs or very intelligent. All of my friends have college degrees or still in school. Just because you do drugs doesn’t mean you are a low life. We just like to work hard and party just as hard.
@ kels
but what happens when you get busted? won’t you lose your nice jobs? or once you get to where you can’t do without your party drugs, what will you do then? I’ve seen serious addicts who are homeless because of their addiction. I don’t think they started out with the intention of getting so addicted that they lose everything. they started out like you, doing it for fun. then it spiraled out of control and they got to where they can’t live without it. And or they get arrested, and you can forget about a nice job with a drug conviction on your record.
do what you want, just hope it’s worth it. but to me, it’s not. jmo.
I don’t think a bump is a full line. I think it’s a small amount you put on the back of your hand or in a fingernail. The drug equivalent of one drag off a cigarette.
Ya a bump is a small bit on something convenient like a key or card or something. Also Joanna, rarely do people get busted for doing it, they aim for the dealers no the doers. Maybe it’s different in Canada but I do not know a single person arrested for doing drugs. Not everyone that does drugs is an addict or will turn out homeless. A good chunk of people do them recreationally and don’t end up addicted, common misconception.
Harking back to my misspent youth, a bump is a small amount to maintain your buzz, “bump” you back up. At least that’s what it meant to me.
I hate drug dealers and druggies but I really hate tattletales
Agreed. It’s a sad world when drug dealers and paid escorts can’t even keep their mouths shut.
They’re like dishonest politicians: they don’t stay bought.
Having know a few in my life, this guy doesn’t seem authentic to me, most I have know are discreet about their clients, for good reason.
It’s so sad that she is so much in denial about her addictions. She has pretty much everyone who isnt her friend or family saying that she has a problem. At the end of the day you can fix your problems unless you admit to having one.
Also im just a few months older then Lindsay and even though i might go out here and there my hardcore partying days stopped when i was 23. I dont understand why she doesnt take being an adult seriously. It’s like she’s stuck at 21 in a slowly, deteriorating body.
I don’t know how she can keep doing it physically. But just wait till she hits 30. I could still stay up all night in my late 20s (not drinking, I get massive hangovers), but 30 hit and all of a sudden staying up all night ruined my whole week. But then compared to alcoholics I’ve known among my dad’s generation… They can keep drinking massive amounts into their 60s, with no signs of slowing down. I’m guessing it’s going to hit them like a freight train when it does.
Nice to see Lohan Inc still pumping them stories out every day to keep the money coming in……Got a good contract with ROL don’t they…..People say its Shawn Holly and I laugh cause she is part of the Lohan Inc group in the first place…..
When Lindsay gets back from her Betty Ford Vacation were despite what is being reported she is not One iota cleaner and sober’er then when she went in cause she was able the first time to keep drinking and drugging and was somehow able to blackmail Betty Ford out of a years free rent when she got out so what ever she was holding over the heads is still in effect cause she got back in at the very last second…..to save her ass from jail…….So what every Holly used why wouldn’t she use it to make use her “client ” is comfortable while she stays there..????? Not a dam thing….So its all for the media and Betty Ford will cover for her ass just like last time…..Nothing new here…..Just dodging the Law …..
Ain’t that right Lindsay ? we know you and Mommy dearest read these comments every day ……
Completely superficial question: do you get extensions while in rehab? Will she come out with her actual hair (and lips)?
Her extentions will still be hanging in there for the most part. But she will look ratty. And her lips will be somewhat deflated.
I was actually wondering the same thing LOL. Will she be allowed to get a colour touch-up on her roots?
They might allow someone who volunteers their services to come in and give the recovering addicts manicures or hair treatments. But I highly doubt LiLo would allow anyone that peasanty to touch her golden locks of death.
She’ll get out of rehab, get her E & Coke, & she’ll OD, because she took the same does dose that she took before Betty Ford. I doubt that she’ll be alive to see 2014.
It amazes me how much abuse an addicts body can take.
I find the entire article difficult to believe because of one line – the drug dealer stopped his deliveries to her because he was concerned for her health? No – sorry – dont buy that or the rest of the story.
As someone said above it’s probably not as much about her health as much as it’s about his a$$ in a sling if she ODs, dies and they tie the drugs back to him. I’d also be willing to wager that given her financial situation he probably stopped because she didn’t have the cash to pay for it. “Favors” don’t pay the rent.
WHAT A SHOCK! Said no one ever.
Lindsay shares.. she has a big snorting family to share with.. and wasn’t her uh.. party-time prop dealer Greasy bear and Paris?
re: the title. Uh, der.
Oh, and a drug dealer worried about his clients’ well-being? When she’s loaded? I’m sure.
This will not end well. Lindsay, that is. Pretty sad.
a drug dealer giving an interview, telling the interwiever his real name and telling a story about a client? only in ‘murrica 😀
‘Murrica: Land of the weed, home of the rave.
Oh yeah and it’s so believable, I’m amazed the cops aren’t arresting him for his confession.
I need to party with the Lohan.
15000 a week on blow is INSANE. I have lived in NYC for four years and have enjoyed the party scene so I know that good bag of blow maybe 3 or 5 grams (about 4/5 bags) is about 250-300 bucks. And molly is only 20 dollars a capsule or 50 for a small bag. 15000? that seems absurd…I would say she was spending about 5,000 a week but hey! maybe she really is THAT addicted. I thought I partied a lot, and I have friends who party more, but danm…thats insane. Another thing molly stops working after 3 or 4 times in a row because your brain has no serotonin to release so its pointless. And you don’t mix coke with molly because they cancel each other out..so she is pretty much an idiot when it comes to taking drugs
Like this is surprising. She’s broke and she’s publicly been openly high 24/7 for the past 6 years. We know she wasn’t spending the money on getting her weave fixed, paying taxes, or good plastic surgery.
“I am not in the business of helping people kill themselves.”
Does he think no one dies in Latin America because of the cocaine industry?
Every drug process from scratch to end is a matter of life and death, at least in my country.
From kidnapping helpless illegals on their way to the USA to work for the cartels, to people who get killed to steals their trucks (and taking them to the country, where most of the “fabrics” and crops are, also, the cartels fight the towns they control, the routes they use, every drug, you name it, kills and corrupts people.
Prohibition never works, it only helps create and finance these criminal organizations that spread evil.
Every recovering addict knows their sobriety date and is proud of it, so when LL didn’t know hers I assumed she was still using. LL only said, “It had been a long time since she had last used drugs,” but gave no date when asked in an interview. This always made me suspicious.
Today happens to be my 10 year anniversary of being off OxyContin. It’s the hardest thing I have ever done. I can’t imagine how difficult this would have been if I was rich, famous, lived in Hollywood, the public eye and had a ton of enablers.
What people don’t seem to understand is that the real work of recovery begins after you leave rehab and go back to living your life without drugs. You don’t come home from 30-day rehab all shiny and new. 30-day rehab really ought to be called medical detox since in the first days or weeks docs try to get the addict off all drugs to see what lies underneath the person and if they have medical or mental health issues they’re trying to self medicate with drugs. In LL’s case Betty Ford determined she doesn’t have ADD yet it’s likely LL has some type of emotional abuse or neglect; only worked through with counseling.
By sentencing LL to 90-day rehab the judge was actually doing LL a favor by ensuring she have the time to get medically detoxed before giving her another two months to develop and learn some coping strategies for living life without drugs. The problem is, the addict has to be done using before this will work and clearly LL is not.
As for the dealer who claims he finally had to cut LL off before she killed herself, this is probably true. I have a friend who was a heroin addict and started using OC. He had a dealer who refused to sell him more then ten 80mg OC’s a month because he was afraid my friend would kill himself. I know it sounds like fuzzy logic but the drug world has its own set of ethics.
Thank you for your comment @Ex Oxy Girl and congratulations on your ten years! I agree with you that every alcoholic/addict I know who has been sober any amount of time knows their sobriety date by heart! Mine is 4/20/80. That makes me 33 years sober, it’s amazing I’ve been clean and sober this long, but it started with being totally surrendered, and to tell you the truth I had tried to get sober before and I don’t know why I got sober that last time. I think that you have to realize that your best thinking got you where you are, and that listening to someone else who has been sober and clean and following their instructions is what will save you. Not as easy as it sounds because a lot of alcoholics/addicts seem to think that they know best, although their life has gone down the tubes! This is part of the ism, we can’t see what others see and this is LL in a nutshell.
Mine is 2/10/07. Congrats on your anniversary!
I agree with your insights: It’s not enough to take away the drugs and detox a person: You have to deal with the underlying issues that brought them to addiction to begin with. And only when the addict is “ready” to quit drugs and commit to sobriety the healing can begin; forcing them into rehab will not work.
Congratulations on your anniversary and thank you so much for your bravery and exposing such a vulnerable and personal part of yourself.
Congrats on your sobriety! I bet it’s a hard road and I wish you much health and success!
Congrats to all here on their sobriety!!
And there is a drug counselor upthread who also confirms the fact that some dealers will cut off clients they think are endangering themselves.
Personally, I think all drugs need to be decriminalized and made available to addicts. Good, pharmaceutical grade drugs that won’t kill them (of course they would have to pay for them). It would cost our country to much less money, and outlawing things doesn’t work anyway (see the Prohibition). It only creates a huge industry around illegal manufacture and sales of drugs. The cartels would be obsolete. I absolutely hate the nanny state. Protect our borders and let us take care of ourselves how we see fit! Sorry for the rant, but this has always been a bet peeve of mine. I’m pretty much a staunch Libertarian.
I tend to agree with you Lulu. I notice too that abuse of legal drugs now seems to be as big or bigger a problem than illegal drugs so clearly legality is not solving our nation’s drug problems. Certainly locking up drug users is wasting a lot of money and lives in the prison system.
Um, is it a ‘trigger’ when taking Adderall for a condition that she doesn’t actually have? For the rest of us that’s called falling off the wagon. Like any of us expect her to stay sober, considering that she has proclaimed that rehab is an opportunity to take time for herself, since Lindsay Lohan definitely doesn’t have a drug problem.
Yeah, I think 15 thousand sounds about right for a weeks supply. I was reading an interview with Alexis Neiers where she talked about her drug use and she would spend 10 grand a week on blow. Drugs are expensive!
After reading some of these figures, perhaps, after all, it is better to be poor.
Her ‘triggers’ are being arrogant, entitled, narcissistic, and talentless (which she’ll never acknowledge). She’s wholly lacking in the slightest sense of obligation to behave like a responsible adult, and free of even a tiny bit of desire to do good works/help the less fortunate in this world.
Thank you for the kind words and best wishes. I never thought that on 5/23/03, I would make it a week without OxyContin and now it’s been 10 years! If I had kept using I’d just be older and more addicted (in addition to being either in jail, a mental institution or dead). The best things I’ve achieved in life I achieved when I wasn’t using drugs.
Lulu I agree that many of the drug problems we face today such as drug trafficking and prolific criminal activity began a result of prohibition. Still I’m not so sure all drugs should be legalized. I do hope the US never forgets the valuable lessons that Prohibition taught the country about taking on social issues. As Thomas Paine once said, “Allow the same rights to others as we allow ourselves.”
I would love to see the country set up drug prevention programs that delve into issues such as why people self-medicate in the first place and/or why some people feel they have to be fucked up on drugs just to get through the day.
Thank you for the kind words and best wishes. I never thought that on 5/23/03, I would make it a week without OC and now it’s been 10 years! If I had kept using I’d just be older and more addicted (in addition to being either in jail, a mental institution or dead). The best things I’ve achieved in life I were accomplished when I wasn’t using drugs.
Lulu I agree that many of the drug problems we face today such as drug trafficking and prolific criminal activity began a result of prohibition. Still I’m not so sure all drugs should be legalized. I do hope the US never forgets the valuable lessons that Prohibition taught the country about taking on social issues. As Thomas Paine once said, “Allow the same rights to others as we allow ourselves.”
I would love to see the country set up a program to help people understand why they are self-medicating in the first place and/or why some people feel they have to be fucked up on drugs just to get through the day.
I’ve really enjoyed all the personal stories on here. Thank you all for sharing, and congratulations to all who’ve conquered their demons and continue their journey of sobriety.
I’ve never used illegal drugs of any type, and try to stay away from medicinals unless absolutely necessary. However, I am passionately interested in human behaviour, why people start using recreational drugs, how they are affected, how they become addicted, how they kick their habits etc.
One thing I’ve found fascinating, and very sad, in reading scholarly works on this subject, is that some of these drugs cause the user to damage the part of the brain that gives us pleasure and happiness. Consequently, since users do not feel happiness or pleasure, they use more and more in an effort to regain those feelings, even temporarily. It appears to be a never-ending cycle, but a futile one, since the brain is no longer able to release the feel-good hormones. This might explain why Lindsay, and others like her, keep on this path – chasing those good and normal feelings by using these substances.
I don’t know what the answer is, but I do feel a bit sorry for her. Regardless of how it appears to us, her life must be a merry-go-round of abject misery, and I think that is adequate “punishment”.