Halle Berry speaks candidly of suicide attempt (update)

In a new interview in Parade Magazine, Halle Berry speaks candidly about considering suicide after her difficult failed first marriage to baseball player David Justice. She said she sat in her car with the gas on and was thinking about letting the carbon monoxide kill her, but realized that she didn’t want her mother to find her that way and thought it would be selfish to go through with it.

“I was sitting in my car, and I knew the gas was coming, when I had an image of my mother finding me,” she says.

“She sacrificed so much for her children, and to end my life would be an incredibly selfish thing to do. It was all about a relationship. My sense of worth was so low,” Berry said.

“I promised myself I would never be a coward again.”

Berry describes her second marriage, to singer
Eric Benet, as “really horrific.” “We were in sex rehab after one year. I wish I had left then, but I was putting everyone’s needs before mine,” she says.

Berry goes on to say that she now has the goal of motherhood in mind and that it’s a “different chapter” in her life. She has said in the past that if it doesn’t happen for her naturally she will adopt a child.

That’s really brave of her to talk about considering suicide. When you hear about celebrities facing severe depression it’s kind of reassuring to know that it’s nothing to be ashamed of. Everyone has hard times in life that we get through somehow.

Berry is appearing in the upcoming thriller Perfect Stranger with Bruce Willis.

Update: Thanks to ONTD for this excerpt from a December, 2002 Vogue interview with Halle, in which she went into more detail about her suicide attempt:

“The day in 1997 their divorce was final, Halle tried to commit suicide. “I didn’t slit my wrists,” she tells me. “I went into the garage and took my two dogs with me. I would never shoot my brains out. I thought, I’ll just lie down and go to sleep. I’ll sit in the car and I’ll asphyxiate myself. I had a bottle of wine. Car on, garage door shut. I was just going to…as I cried my eyes out…not wake up. Somewhere in that half-hour, the only thing that stopped me…because I was really ready to go, I was ready…is that I thought about my mother. All I ever wanted to do was to be the good girl, and how disappointing would this be? How much would this kill her and hurt her?”

Here she is at the Perfect Stranger photocall in Madrid on 3/27. I love how she looks annoyed while she’s bending over, like she’s giving the obligatory cleavage shot, but isn’t happy about it. Pictures [via]

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  1. countrybabe says:

    Why does she keep talking about adopting and just do it? Looks like she’s trying to make herself look good.

  2. Bex says:

    She might not be ready for it.. There’s a lot of wisdom in planning these things out. She also said that if she doesn’t have one naturally, then she would consider it.

  3. bgirl says:

    country babe – you complain about Angelina adopting, then you complain about Jessica Simpson and Halle Berry not adopting – do you even know what your own opinion is?

  4. kikistar says:

    Good for her if she is comfortable thatsuch private events of her past life known by everyone. She seems not to know the limits… We are not her psy…

  5. Cupcake says:

    I say kudos to her for being strong enough to share something that she could easily be lambasted by non-self-aware jackasses for. If more people opened up about their mental health issues and successful recovery then perhaps the stigma of seeking help in the form of therapy would finally die and we’d have a vastly healthier society. I’ve always liked Miss Berry but I’m gaining a whole new respect for her in light of her candid honesty. Bravo Halle, well done.

  6. MaiGirl says:

    I have always had a soft spot for Halle, and I think that she TOTALLY deserved her Oscar (especially since she convincingly portrayed having the hots for Billy Bob), but now, like Cupcake, I have even more respect. I can totally understand her reasoning, or lack therof, and I think it will help a lot of people to be so candid about her troubles. Women, especially young women, often think that if they were rich, famous, and beautiful, their lives would be problem-free. If nothing else, Halle helps burst that dangerous bubble.

  7. Carol says:

    I don’t know, I haven’t had any respect for her since her hit and run.

  8. gumboyaya says:

    Damn. We could have been rid of this no talent hack a long time ago. Too bad she reconsidered.

    I wish Hollywood would get it through their head that pretty does not equal talent. Then maybe we could see some actaully talented black actresses on our movie screens.

    Maybe one day.

  9. Siegrfried says:

    I’m with Carol on this one. Actually I lost all respect for Ms. Berry for making Catwoman.

  10. countrybabe says:

    bgirl, I see you don’t read. i see it for how it is. I can see good things in Angelina. I said at least she went ahead and did it, instead of talking about it in 20 publications. Halle is is 40 already. As for Jessica if you watched the show you could see Jessica wanted a kid an Nick didn’t. Watch he ends up with one before she gets one.