Lindsay Lohan: I did cocaine because “I was trying to please everyone”

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You’re not even going to believe the bullsh-t that comes out of Lindsay Lohan’s mouth in this interview. It is one of the most stunning, oblivious, ridiculous, lie-filled steaming pieces of cow flop I’ve ever had the pleasure to read. Lindsay sat down for an “exclusive” interview with The Sun – for no reason, because she barely works anymore, and she’s not promoting anything other than her own cracked-out image. The bulk of the interview is about Lindsay’s drug usage, and how after three rehab trips and years of cracked-out shenanigans, Lindsay has “learnt from my mistakes and I’m now healthy and happier.” Oh. My. God.

HOLLYWOOD wild child LINDSAY LOHAN today lays bare the extent of her drug addiction – and confesses she came close to killing herself through a heady mix of alcohol, cocaine and mind-bending drugs. And she tells of her “terror” at collapsing on her bathroom floor after taking sleeping pills.

The bisexual actress, who has been to rehab three times and was jailed after being caught with cocaine, has always played down the extent of her drug abuse. But today the 23-year-old star of hit films such as Herbie Fully Loaded and Mean Girls sensationally reveals she hit rock bottom – and risked blowing her entire career.

Speaking exclusively to The Sun she tells how her problems got worse when her father MICHAEL, a former drug addict and jailbird who beat up Lindsay’s mother DINA, started talking to the Press about his daughter in 2007.

Lindsay, nicknamed Li-Lo, says: “When my father was going public, that’s when I hit rock bottom. I abused substances too much and it wasn’t the answer to my problems. People need to know that. I tried to mask my problems with alcohol, cocaine and mind-altering substances. Now I’m in a place where I don’t need to use anything and I can feel emotions because I choose to.”

“I learnt from my mistakes and I’m now healthy and happier. I never want to be close to losing everything I worked for and aspired to have my whole life. Mind-altering substances are so dangerous. If I can teach others, especially teens, by sharing my experiences, then that’s what I will continue to do. I’ve made some dreadful mistakes but learned from them – that has probably saved my life.”

Lindsay sees a therapist fortnightly and attends weekly alcohol education lessons. She says the first time she sought help for her addiction was in 2007 after collapsing in her LA bathroom, waking surrounded by cascading water – and terrified.

She says: “I went to rehab three times. The first time I checked myself in because I had taken Ambien. It’s a sleeping aid but it makes you hallucinate. I’d run a bath and fallen asleep on the floor and the bath had overflowed. When I woke up I was so scared, I called my therapist and said, ‘Can I just go somewhere for a month? I’m around bad people and I need to take care of myself’. I was terrified, so I put myself in.”

“There was a point when I didn’t know how to say ‘No’ and I was trying to please everyone. I was doing pop and making films. I was young and thought I could go out, have fun, then go on set and record. I ran myself down and I lost track of who I was.”

Talking of the first time she was caught with cocaine, following a car smash in May 2007, she confesses: “It was in a purse and I was with friends. I wasn’t trying to lie to police. I was only aware of cocaine because of my dad. I was terrified of it. But I tried it because I was stubborn, stupid, and wanted to see what it was like. It’s not something I ever want to do again. It made me feel like s***. It became uninteresting to me. I’m hyper anyway and I have that kind of personality so I don’t need something like that.”

In January 2007 came the incident with Ambien which led her to check herself into the Wonderland Center clinic, in Los Angeles, for 30 days. Later that year she pulled out of one film and was dropped from another. In May came her arrest for drink-driving after hitting a tree.

She says: “I wasn’t driving like a maniac. There were paparazzi and their flashes were going off into the window. I tried to turn, then I sped up because they sped up. That’s when I hit the tree. I just thank God everyone was OK. But it was scary. I had three drinks, at most. I’ve been stupid and childish and I wasn’t thinking.”

Police then found the cocaine in her purse and Lindsay entered rehab for a second time, this time in Malibu, for six weeks. On her release Lindsay had to wear an alcohol monitoring bracelet on her ankle. Yet just two weeks later, in July 2007, she was arrested for drink driving and cops again found cocaine, this time in her pocket. She went to rehab in Utah.

In August 2007 she pleaded guilty to cocaine use and driving under the influence. She was jailed for a day and ordered to complete an alcohol education programme.

Lindsay, who has spent much of the past week partying in London, where she also hosted a fundraiser for Haiti, says: “I’m allowed to drink now but I know my limits. There are certain situations where I have obligations. There’s no reason to (drink) because I don’t want to feel like s*** in the morning.”

She says: “The thing is, at the times I was going out a lot and being seen everywhere, I would have been in college. My brother, who is 18, and his friends go out to bars and stuff till whatever time. That’s what you do in college. Mine was all in the public eye so it was magnified that much more. I’ve now learned my boundaries and I’ve been very good with cleaning house with people who I know didn’t have my best intentions at heart. A lot of people in LA are very self destructive. Partying so hard simply isn’t worth it. Life is worth living and there is so much to do and experience, it’s wonderful.”

[From The Sun]

Now, CB and I are of two different minds about exactly what drugs Lindsay is on, and has been on for a long time. CB always thinks that Lindsay’s on Adderall, and that she’s probably mixing it with alcohol and perhaps other prescription medications. My opinion is that Lindsay swallows, snorts, rubs, smokes, inhales, shoots and drinks whatever is around, be it prescription medication, or actual cocaine, heroin, whatever. So, whatever. Maybe Lindsay’s telling the truth about her cocaine use. But I doubt it. Probably because I’ve actually seen photos of her over the past few years.

Partygirl Lindsay Lohan makes her way back to her London hotel after hanging out at Mahiki nightclub

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  1. Lindsay says:

    I feel kind of bad for her. but she blames her problems on other people. Through therapy and rehab, if she took it seriously, she would take responsibilty. I don’t think she has really learned from her mistakes.

  2. Betty says:

    Adderall is a brand-name psychostimulant medication composed of amphetamine and dextroamphetamine. So if she is on that she is probably speeding her brains out.

  3. princess pea says:

    Neat how she has an excuse for everything, and an explanation of how it is not her fault.
    It’s daddy’s fault that she did cocaine, and her friends too. It’s daddy’s fault that she “hit rock bottom” (though seriously, Linds, that wasn’t rock bottom in 2007. Look at you now!). It was the paparazzi’s fault that she was driving drunk and hit a tree. It was her friends fault that she lied to the cops(?). She was tired, and the Ambien messed her up… it wasn’t her fault!

    Do we really believe she’s been in therapy on a fortnightly basis? If so, that’s one shitty therapist.

  4. Ana says:

    A lot of celebrities use adderall to lose weight and have energy. I guess they don’t think it’s as bad as other drugs because it’s in a pill form. Or maybe they just don’t care.

    She ALMOST threw her career away? She is obviously still on something if she thinks she may still have a chance.

  5. Lem says:

    rubs??? lol

  6. Celebitchy says:

    I actually think she’s on Oxycontin, but yes, prescription medication in general. You’re probably right, Kaiser, that she also does whatever is around. Sad!

  7. meme says:

    put a sock in it Hohan. what a liar.

  8. dread pirate cuervo says:

    This sounds like bits & pieces of what you might hear at an AA meeting strung together to tell people what she thinks they want to hear. Except for the part where she’s “allowed to drink now” but “knows her limits”. I can drink whenever I want because I’m old enough to buy alcohol. But for 3+ years, I’ve chosen not to because I know for me 1 drink = a whole bottle of tequila = trainwreck & that will never, ever change. You can’t turn a pickle back into a cucumber.

    Also, the word choices just don’t sound like natural conversation so it just seems like straight-up fabrication on the part of the tabloid.

  9. GatsbyGal says:

    “Now I’m in a place where I don’t need to use anything and I can feel emotions because I choose to.”

    I love her wording here. She doesn’t “need” to use anything. Duh, she wants to. Hahaha, are we really supposed to believe she’s living clean? If this past year has been Lindsay clean, then my god, her brain has been absolutely blown out. Lock her away because she’s never getting better.

  10. No Sensi says:

    “If I can teach others, especially teens, by sharing my experiences, then that’s what I will continue to do.”

    lmao!! This means Ali right?

  11. The Queen Bee says:

    “That’s what you do in college.”


    Because you know anything about college?

    Sure, there is a lot of fun to be had in college, but there is also a lot of learning, and growing and maturing. It’s not just parties, booze and drugs. Unlike Hollywood where everyone has money to throw around for doing a little work a few months a year, most college students work hard and have to support themselves.

  12. Kim says:

    Yeah because she never airs her private issues in public herself?! Her father is crap but she cant blame her drug problems on him. Its called denial Lindsay. You know she currently takes a ton of mind altering substances. She is so stupid she really thinks saying she doesnt do drugs and we will believe her? wow she really is lost.

  13. ien says:

    “the 23-year-old star of hit films such as Herbie Fully Loaded and Mean Girls sensationally reveals she hit rock bottom – and risked blowing her entire career”

    RISKED blowing her entire career?? RISKED!?
    Her career is blown. period.

    I absolutely think she’s still on drugs, i’m sorry but NO 23 year olds face looks like that without the help of drugs.

    and @ GatsbyGal, you took the words right out of my mouth

  14. snapdragon says:

    “That’s what you do in college.”

    and when exactly did this orange-skinned crackhead go to college? here’s a newflash, linds: college is for getting an education, that’s what most of us did in college. and also? she should probably see a therapist 3 times a week, not twice a month.

  15. QB says:

    This is the biggest lie “the 23-year-old star of hit films such as Herbie Fully Loaded ” since when is Herbie a hit movie??

    I’m a college student and I have never done any of the things Lindsay claims you do in college.

    Maybe i’m going to college for the wrong reason , like get an education and prepare myself for the future.

  16. lucy2 says:

    I agree she probably does whatever she can get her hands on, passes the blame on everything, and that her career is blown. She’s a mess.

  17. Ally says:

    She must have one heck of a liver and cardiovascular system, cause evidently Heath Ledger’s and Brittany Murphy’s bodies couldn’t withstand this kind of chemical habit.

    It’s a sad waste of potential, talent and opportunity, but on the other hand, partying is what she’s clearly most interested in, so she’s doing what she wants.

    For parents obsessed with making their kid their piggy bank (see also: Tiger Woods), the point of an education besides the acting or sports isn’t just for some office career you think your kid will never have to do — it’s for teaching them to think and process their problems and emotions intelligently, to look outside themselves at the rest of humanity, so that they don’t grow up to have this brainless, panicky void inside them that they have to fill with whoring, compulsive boyfriend chasing (see also: J Simp, K Hud) or drugs.

  18. I can see where she’s coming from with her “college age” excuse. Everyone should have an “adolescence” experience early on in life – it’s how you learn about real-world consequences, and mature. (I had a “retarded adolescence” – in that I was a choir girl until about 20-21, and then I started making some very bad, self-centered decisions.)

    But the problem I have is that Lindsay has been living in perpetual adolescence for some time now. Everyone is against her, nothing’s her fault, “no one can understand what it means to be ME!” type-drama. There’s a time and a place for that mindset/behavior, and she’s been overstaying her welcome for years now. I think some of that is organic (I wouldn’t be surprised if she’s depressed), but she’s alienating herself by not taking any real onus for her actions.

    Her interview is highly indicative of ego-centric and maladaptive cognitions. I can’t even give her credit for (half-assedly) talking about her past, because the whole thing reeks of a PR ploy rather than any meaningful attempt at accountability/redemption. It’s clear that the only reason she did this interview is because she’s deluded enough to think that she can sway public opinion with a vague apology and a promise to do better.

    It’s really sort of sad. The only person she’s fooling with this interview is herself.

  19. Ruby Red Lips says:

    Denial denial denial

    She thinks by spouting this ‘i’m a reformed character and I’m all for selfless interests now’ that the general public as a whole must be as stupid as she is…

    Doh…she’s a substance addicted wreck, I pity anyone who falls for this cr*p, she’s just tabloid fodder, with no actual career to speak of

  20. vale says:

    I find it almost impossible for someone with her depth of addiction to get out of it without changing her life around. I don’t think she can really expect anyone to believe her party life, which is what aided her downward spiral, can stay what it is, you know, clubs and sycophants and total indulgences, but she can drop the drugs.
    I recently quit smoking and had to change my morning routine from cappuccino to tea just to not make me crave the morning smoke. That’s where I’m not sold at all. That, and her eyes, obviously.

  21. moo says:

    Now she should please everyone by going away! SKANK!!!!

  22. MiMi says:

    She’s clearly on the AA “lite” program. Unfortunately there’s a segment of the recovery population that believe they can partake in moderation. Whether or not that is true is not up to me to judge, but it’s been my experience with various family members who have the “gene” and have gone through the program that it is those who obstain altogether who do better than those who partake in moderation. She’s just setting herself up for the next big meltdown and I guess that’s OK if it means she hits rock bottom again? She seems to look at that as a positive thing so…..

  23. california angel says:

    Ya it’s def a combo of prescription opiates and uppers i think. One thing against the oxy theory, though very valid, is that it makes you gain a lot of weight.

  24. Camille says:

    I would like to believe her in this interview.
    I also agree with CB that whatever she is taking/using is alcohol and prescription meds.
    I hope she sorts her life out, I can’t believe she is so young but she looks years older because she has just not taken care of herself.

  25. hatsumomo says:

    (looks around in bewilderment)

    I didn’t know April Fools came so early!

  26. lurker says:

    I’m so happy others have already stated what I wanted to. Princess Pea – that is the largest thing that I took away from this interview – that she blames everyone else for all of her problems. Could she not make any connection between her drinking and driving (and probable speeding) with being causal factors in the accident? And the other thing, what kind of AA program lets someone with her history begin drinking again? (Admittedly, I don’t know much about AA though.) I’m a behaviouralist, so not taking responsibility for your actions and choices really gets to me sometimes. (I guess I’ll just choose to let it go though…LOL!) 😉

  27. Nicky says:

    @jaundicemac – it is a PR ploy. This has Max Clifford written all over it and what a coincidence, last week Lindsay was photographed leaving his office! Max is the UK’s biggest publicist who is infamous for orchestrating tacky tabloid scoops like this. You only go to him if you are in dire need of publicity so this confirms how irrelevant she is.

  28. Emily says:


    I can see her point about things getting magnified because she’s famous-if I was famous, you’d all be talking about photos of me falling out of clubs at 4am.

    But eventually, you settle down. Still drink, but not so… trashily. And not try to look like an orange skeleton.

  29. CB Rawks says:

    “…with people who I know didn’t have my best intentions at heart.”

    Uhhuh. Is that why you feel so subconscious?

  30. Aussie Mama says:

    Oh yes blame everything on Dad, cos Mum is such a frickin’ saintly role model herself. Mum’s like bloody Kate Moss!
    The whole family could suck nails out of wood with their nostrils!

  31. anjasmomma says:

    Delusional! Lilo really needs to take responsibility for her actions. She sounds about as mature as a 13 year old.

  32. lucy2 says:

    As for her college comments – there’s a HUGE difference between going to parties and bars on weekends (even though a lot of binge drinking happens) and being a hard core drug addict every single day, which is what she was and 99% sure still is. The idea that she’s trying to pass off her behavior as typical for that of a college age kid is pretty telling.

  33. lin234 says:

    That is not her natural weight. I’m sure some of the substances she’s doing is helping curb her appetite but it’s giving her a double chin bloat or whatever the hell is going on in her chin area. She’s super skinny and yet she has a double chin. Something is off.

  34. gg says:

    Her idea of past tense is last week. I don’t think she’s truly quit doing anything.

  35. MsTriste says:

    Ahh the Adderall excuse. “It’s just prescribed for ADD/ADHD, so there’s nothing wrong with taking it.” Did you know people crush it and snort it, for a quicker high? Same with oxies. I don’t think she’s on opiates because she’s gained weight over the last year. She’s definitely not sober, and to go to rehab and continue to drink, that’s just stupid.

  36. NicoleAM says:

    The big problem with this interview is that she’s been giving this same kind of interview (“I’m in a better place now. I’ve made mistakes but I’ve learned from them…”) for the past few years. She needs to go away and really take care of these problems and then give an interview. This is a PR move that backfired because she’s been singing the same song for too long that no one believes her.

  37. NicoleAM says:

    And she’s still partying ALL the time, and looking worse for wear.

  38. Again, no accountability or taking responsibility. Problem for her is that she believes that she is special. Which is encouraged and enabled by her mother who is on the payroll, the only people around her at all on the payroll (or desperate to be papped), the paps who make money off of her, etc. The fact that mags still consider her a story (and probably paid for the interview) is the only shocking part of this at all. Why? She is another drugged up has-been. I’m awaiting the reality show – you know it is coming. Anything to keep her in the public eye.
    If she was serious about cleaning up, she would disappear for a good solid year and try to actually deal with her damage instead of using it as an excuse as to why her life is a wasteland and that it is everyone else’s fault. But then she wouldn’t be in the spotlight and that is the only way she knows to feels important, love and validated.
    She will not make it to 30.

  39. lola says:

    i belive her!!
    you guys should give the girl a credit
    for trying to get better!!

    its not easy for her at all.


  40. Lway says:

    @ lola: you must be kidding.

    She’s a walking talking disease ….. eeewww. she should just crawl under a rock and stay there

  41. Ruby Red Lips says:

    @ Lola above – please re-read my comment & then apply it to yourself…

  42. DD says:

    She’s still 23 and she’s been through a lot, I have a feeling she’ll straighten out soon, and in defense of Adderall, I’ve never taken it but I do take Ritalin which is also a stimulant. It doesn’t make you speed out your brain at all and I still have an appetite. Unless you are really abusing, taking way more than prescribed amount, it’s not the ugly drug everybody keeps making it out to be.

  43. Neelyo says:

    When she says pleasing ‘everyone’, she means the Cocaine Gods.

  44. Ruby Red Lips says:


    “Moving to the UK is in my near future* better dj’s/music and Paris is just a Chunnel away!”
    about 4 hours ago via UberTwitter

    Please keep her USA

  45. Nicky – Ah! So the plot thickens*! (*Becomes more transparent than ever.)

    I don’t think I’ve ever seen a person so self-obsessed with their public image that they’re willing to destroy themselves to get overtime on their 15 minutes. I think that’s why it’s so hard to take her mental state/addictions seriously – homegirl is the walking definition of “fame whore”. She’d kill herself for fame/infamy, it’s her Number 1 addiction. And that level of narcissism is hard to relate to.

    Love that she’s so self-absorbed that she alludes to the Program while sporting that pill pallor. That’s pretty much Step 1 fail.

    I think scripts are her drugs of choice – easy to get and you have the built in “I’m so complicated I need these meds!” excuse. (I’m not knocking on anyone taking Adderall – I just don’t think snorting piles of it throughout the day is the recommended usage.) I’m sure she’s not discriminate and will hoover anything in the room, but I’d put money down on crushing and snorting pills as a staple.

    Addies and Oxy, specifically.
    Followed by Fleischmann’s.
    Ah sobriety. . . . Work those Steps, girl!

  46. stewiegriffin says:

    I so tired of this spoiled little bitch taking up air space that could be used for more interesting news.I guess her dad shoves drugs down her throat every morning and every night, or maybe its her lesbo girlfriends, who cares, isn’t she the captain of her own ship?

  47. Alexis says:

    Right, and I killed my neighbor because I was trying to recycle.

  48. Ariel says:

    Seems like she’s trying to make sense of it in her own way. I don’t doubt the pressure and the environment she’s in (filled with people who party, use and abuse drugs) helps a girl get lost. Only time will tell if she can clean her act up. She’s probably just doing this story to help fix her image. I wouldn’t doubt that she can’t get good scripts anymore. Such a shame. Maybe she’ll pull a Drew Barrymore and get it together and end up doing really well.

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