Courtney Stodden spoke to the Daily Beast recently, in an interview which was published this week. The interview began trending on Twitter almost as soon as it was published. When I covered it yesterday, I included some of Stodden’s quotes where they were reflecting back on how they were groomed and how they were basically deprogramming themselves. Stodden legitimately seems to be in a better place emotionally and psychologically these days and I’m glad they survived it all. But of course, the big headline was about Stodden revealing that Chrissy Teigen privately DM’d Stodden. Stodden’s quote: “She wouldn’t just publicly tweet about wanting me to take “a dirt nap” but would privately DM me and tell me to kill myself. Things like, ‘I can’t wait for you to die.’”
Too many people yesterday wanted to know the context for Teigen’s DMs, like there would be any context to justify a grown woman DMing a teenager and telling them to kill themselves? And if you’re looking for context, the only thing I can show you is all of Chrissy’s tweets from 2011-2012 where she repeatedly and openly harassed Stodden and tweeted vile things. So, with all of that in mind, Chrissy is super-sorry that you see her differently. She waited 24 hours to apologize. I’m not embedding her tweets, but here’s what she said:
Not a lot of people are lucky enough to be held accountable for all their past bullsh-t in front of the entire world. I’m mortified and sad at who I used to be. I was an insecure, attention seeking troll. I am ashamed and completely embarrassed at my behavior but that is nothing compared to how I made Courtney feel. I have worked so hard to give you guys joy and be beloved and the feeling of letting you down is nearly unbearable, truly. These were not my only mistakes and surely won’t be my last as hard as I try but god I will try!!
I have tried to connect with Courtney privately but since I publicly fueled all this, I want to also publicly apologize. I’m so sorry, Courtney. I hope you can heal now knowing how deeply sorry I am. And I am so sorry I let you guys down. I will forever work on being better than I was 10 years ago, 1 year ago, 6 months ago.
“Not a lot of people are lucky enough to be held accountable for all their past bullsh-t in front of the entire world.” Let ME tell you about ME and how hard this moment is for ME. “I was an insecure, attention seeking troll.” Wrong verb tense, Chrissy. Go for the present tense. This sentence is the one which I’m still digesting though: “I have worked so hard to give you guys joy and be beloved and the feeling of letting you down is nearly unbearable, truly.” Does… Chrissy think that she’s beloved? Does she think she’s working hard to put on a Cool Girl persona while being Extremely Online is somehow a thing that makes her beloved? Yiiikes.
Before I saw Stodden’s reaction to Chrissy, I hoped that Stodden wouldn’t care or would just ignore Chrissy completely. The worst case scenario for Chrissy would be if Stodden doesn’t acknowledge her publicly, you know? But no, the actual worst case scenario was for Stodden to say that Teigen still has them blocked on Twitter, and that Teigen never reached out privately. Damn!
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