Amy Winehouse and Blake on 5/23/07. Credit: Bauergriffin

In a telephone interview with News of the World, Blake Fielder-Civil expressed his remorse for not only the way his life has gone by his own doing, but how he has essentially ruined the life of his “soulmate,” Amy Winehouse. In recorded audio posted on the News of the World site, Blake expressed remorse for ruining his and Amy’s chances at happiness because, he says, they just can’t be normal together.

When you’re actually in rehab, you’re very aware of the things you’ve done to yourself and others. I’ve visited enough people in in-house rehab to know that they are brutally honest with themselves and the things they’ve done to others while they’re in there. The hard part, for many, is maintaining that awareness and those feelings of responsibility and dedication after they’re not living with the reinforcement day in and day out. Blake seems pretty resigned to the assumption that this isn’t something he can do, and he’s quite positive it’s not something he and Amy have any chance of doing if they’re together.

Above all, in his lucid state, Blake knows and admits that he is responsible for making Winehouse a junkie, saying “If it wasn’t for drugs me and Amy would be so happy. Without crack and without heroin, Amy would be making beautiful music like she can… We always said we were like Bonnie and Clyde, but it’s just, that’s no way to live.”

GUILT-RACKED Blake Fielder-Civil last night sensationally admitted HE got wife Amy Winehouse hooked on heroin, crack cocaine and self-harm—and vowed to end their marriage to stop her killing herself.

In an explosive interview Blake revealed how Amy, 25:
ASKED him to let her try crack cocaine as she watched him taking it.
CUT her arms after she saw him self harm.
COLLAPSED with a seizure after an all-day drug binge.
CHEATED on him with her manager’s assistant.

He told how Amy only took cannabis before he introduced her to hard drugs.

“I made the biggest mistake of my life by taking heroin in front of her,” said Blake, “I introduced her to heroin, crack cocaine and self-harming. I feel more than guilty.”

Blake, 26, described himself as a “recreational drug user” until he started taking heroin at the age of 22.

“I was old enough to know better. Heroin and crack took hold of me and f***** me up,” he said.

“It made me not look out for the woman that I love more than anyone else in the world.”

“Crack is the nastiest drug. It makes you paranoid, unreasonable, edgy and totally suspicious of everyone. And you can get hooked on it straight away. But I was weak and an addict and I let Amy take some. I didn’t stop it from happening. For that I take full responsibility. It became something we did as well as heroin. And then our lives fell apart.”

[From News of the World]

At this point, Fielder-Civil is saying he’s not after Amy’s money. He even claims to have offered a pre-nup before the were married, and a post-nup later, although, I’m not sure what that is. And, as has been pointed out many times by commenters here, pre-nuptual agreements aren’t legally binding in the UK, regardless. He claims that the reason he and Amy are splitting up is because they are just unable to stay sober together and he wants everyone to know, and believe, that he’s doing this to save Amy’s life. Funnily enough, there was no mention of German model Sophie Schandorff.

The interview made me hate the sober Blake less, but I feel no different toward him in terms of what he’s done to one of the most original and inspired talents to make an appearance in a very long time. Amy could have been making a legendary name for herself in a positive, rather than a tragic, way if it weren’t for Fielder-Civil’s influence. Yes, Amy is the one who let herself be led, but that doesn’t make the leader any less responsible than the lost soul that followed.

Amy Winehouse and Blake are shown below on 8/24/07. Credit: Bauergriffin