Katy Perry: Russell Brand divorce made me suicidal, ‘Do I want to endure?’

Katy Perry

Katy Perry covers the upcoming issue of Billboard magazine to promote her PRISM album. She looks super pretty here, right? Katy has just the right coloring to look ethereal while lounging in a lush, green field full of flowers. I’m glad she left her rainbow grill at home for the shoot. Good call.

The interview features Katy throwing Russell Brand under the bus all over again. There’s more about how he dumped her via text message. Now Katy’s painting Rusty as a mega bad guy because she claims to have been suicidal after he filed for divorce. The story’s headline alludes to how Miss Katy “sees the light” now, which probably means she’s not falling for bad boys anymore. We’ll see how that pans out next time she and John Mayer break up. Of course she’s gushing over John here and calling him a “genius” because he’s so good at crossword puzzles. Oookay:

Katy Perry

On PRISM: “I was really inspired by this little six-minute thing by Eckhart Tolle where he speaks about loss. When you lose something, all your foundations crumble-but that also leaves a big hole that’s open for something great to come through. I took a trip to Africa that really put my priorities in perspective and started doing more work on myself. I didn’t want to do Teenage Dream 2.0,” she says. “Teenage Dream was highly conceptual, super-pop art. PRISM is more organic, au naturale, vulnerable and honest, but still has the same amount of fun.”

Katy is surprised by her own success: “Honestly, I’m just masquerading as a pop star.”

She’s training hard: “I am exhausting so much energy right now,” Perry exclaims between bites of Cheez-Its — furtive bites, because eating Cheez-Its is breaking training. “For eight days straight, I’ve been conditioning — just going, going, going at the height of my physical capabilities. I’m supposed to eat meals every two hours, but it takes me an hour to think of what I want to eat, so by lunchtime, I’m starving. I’m just so hungry all the time.”

Barbara Walters schooled her for being late: “I shouldn’t have done the interview: I was playing Madison Square Garden that same night, and I knew that the end of my marriage was coming. I was just exhausted and stressed. I’d prepped everyone that I was running late, but Barbara showed up at the original time anyway. When I got there, I apologized immediately, but then she said to me, ‘You know, I’ve only ever waited for one other person this long, and you know who that person was? Judy Garland. You know how she turned out, right?’ I was like, ‘Oh, snap! Yes, bitch!’ I think it’s the coolest thing that Barbara Walters shaded me. I just couldn’t tell her as we were sitting down for a mega-interview, ‘Hey, my marriage is falling apart. Give me a break.’”

Rusty made her suicidal: The line “You sent a text/It’s like the wind changed your mind” from “Ghost” references how Brand delivered the news he wanted a divorce. “By the Grace of God,” meanwhile, begins with Perry lying on the floor of a bathroom, fighting suicidal thoughts. “That song is evident of how tough it really was at a certain point. I asked myself, ‘Do I want to endure? Should I continue living?’ All the songs are real-life moments. I can only write autobiographically. I put all the evidence in the music. I tell my fans if they want to know the real truth about stuff, just listen to the songs.”

She calls John Mayer “darling”: “He literally is a genius, as is evident from his songwriting. I always tell him, ‘Darling, you know I’m going to have to give your mind to science after you’ve passed, because we’re going to have to understand how all these sparks work.’ We’ll be in bed, and he’ll be doing the crossword puzzle. Every night, he tries to finish it in under 10 minutes. When he puts his mind to something, he really gets it done very well. I always ask for his help.”

She’s more Joni Mitchell than Madonna: “I love Madonna to death, but she’s never going to give me that damn baton. I’ll probably turn into more of a Joni Mitchell. As I inch towards my 30s, I think my fourth record will be more of an acoustic guitar album. That’s where I started when I was first discovered by Glen Ballard and got my first record deal. We’ll see-I can’t get ahead of myself. I’m still doing the work: I’m a good balance of left and right brain, and to be an artist with a long career, you’ve got to have both. One thing John said to me was, ‘It’s harder maintaining success than finding it.’ I’ve got a few records under my belt, and I still feel like a brand-new artist. People still want that truth to cut through.”

[From Billboard]

Oh the contradictions. On one hand, Katy claims she knew her marriage was coming to an end, but the “It’s like the wind changed your mind” lyric makes it seem like she was truly shocked by Rusty’s final farewell. Then she signed the divorce papers with a happy face, which doesn’t sound like a suicidal action. Oh well.

Here’s some photos of Katy promoting her new Killer Queen fragrance in Berlin and suppering at Nobu in London. The “quirky” backpack kills me.

Katy Perry

Katy Perry

Katy Perry

Katy Perry

Photos courtesy of Billboard and WENN

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  1. anne says:

    cannot respect someone who not only dates john mayer but refers to him as a genius. ick.

  2. Naye in VA says:

    I actually have a bag just like that, but its brown with a round zip-top. I love it.

  3. Cricket says:

    I read this over the weekend and can’t for a second believe she was suicidal. Sad, sure but not suicidal. This to me just seems like a marketing ploy for both her new record and her parents preaching business – as I believe the song mentions God’s grace saved her.

    Makes me think that Rusty knew this was going to be a dump on him record so he strategically wrote and performed his Messiah Complex tour…. .? Maybe I’m reading too much into it but seems like Katy got burned, thinks John Mayer is her new muse and the world is grand again. Wonder what she’ll do when they split?

  4. The Original G says:

    Joni Effin Mitchell? Really?

    I’m surprised at your success too. The only remotely interesting about you was that you were once married to Brand.

  5. Nono says:

    It really bothers me that she’s exploiting her previous relationship like this. Have some class, girl …

    This is gross.

  6. Dana M says:

    She has very delusional thoughts about John Mayer. I question her judgement now. JM is obviously a D-bag.

  7. nancypants says:

    I think she has a thing for known D-bags.
    Maybe she thinks she can change them.

    I always thought the smiley face on the divorce papers was really a final, “F-U”, to Brand.
    Something like, “I’m so happy this sh*t is over.”

  8. Zoid says:

    My sympathies to her if all that actually happened. While I have no doubt Brand has broken quite a few hearts, he came off sooo much better in the divorce than she did. Not goin after her money… Then she signs the divorce papers with a smiley face… Then he keeps his mouth shut about it while she brings it up again. Granted he did joke about the whole ‘same woman after a year’ thing, he so admitted he had trouble staying true to her in their marriage, but at least he was honest about it and didn’t do it at her expense. He didn’t blame her for his actions. Whereas she’s coming back now after a year to promote her album, and trots that issue out NOW because it will make headlines? Seems just like something to promote the album honestly.

  9. Jayna says:

    A few comments. I like Katy. She isn’t as pretentious as Gaga. As far as the comment I had suicidal thoughts in that moment, she didn’t say she went on for a month feeling that. She said when the ending of the marriage first hit her she had suicidal ideation. Most people have for a brief moment/moments in a dark period of their life when they are in emotionial pain. I have, that feeling of I can’t live through this pain, I just want to die, and you get up and go on and it passes. I think people are reading more into it than she meant.

    She did start out with a guitar singing acoustically and there are plenty of clips of her singing stripped down, but she isn’t sonwritingwise or vocalwise ever going to be even close to Joni Mitchell. I think she knows that, hopefully, but maybe was just saying she would like to do more that type of music. Sadly, Katy’s vocals are so grating, that I couldn’t imagine listening to her for a whole album without lots of studio help and backing vocals. And Joni was a poet literally with her music. Katy’s songwriting would be fine for stripped down, just not brilliant or close. She probably shouldn’t have used someone so great as an example.

    Lastly, she is enraptured with John. Wait until he breaks your heart in a cruel way, crueler than you could ever expect of your ex. He’s a douche and love clouds that, but it is what it is.

    John was right in one respect, the level of success is harder to maintain than getting there. Look at all the bands/singers that were hot for two albums and faded away with their work after that.

    • M. says:

      +1. Agreed.

      I don’t think KP takes herself too seriously. I think she takes her career seriously and she’s willing to work hard to maintain her level of success but I don’t think she takes herself too seriously. And as a popstar she’s doing everything right by being candid and honest like this while also keeping her fans close through social media. She’s very good at playing the game. That said, I do think her work is more authentic and meaningful than people give her credit for. If you look at songs like Firework, Who Am I Living For, Pearl, and Fingerprints you can tell she’s really overt about wanting to inspire people. It’s not all about her ego.

      I doubt she thinks she’s Joni Mitchell. I think if she really saw herself that way she wouldn’t be so self deprecating.

      You’re right about Mayer. There’s something twisted about that guy. Someone on ONTD said that when he was in high school he was a chubby weirdo loner kid and that some people put him in a trash can and rolled him down a hill. There’s also the fact that when he first got his guitar he spent a whole summer, almost every hour of everyday practicing. Guess he didn’t have many friends…

  10. Quinn says:

    Well, her songs make me feel like killing myself, so I guess we’re even.

  11. GeeMoney says:

    I’m soooo tired of hearing about her relationship with Russell Brand. Didn’t they break up like eons ago? I don’t see why she keeps talking about him.

    And I have no idea why she is dating John Mayer. He’s the king of douches. She could do better.

    • *Laowai* says:

      I have a theory about her constant picking apart a relationship that ended further in the past than it even lasted.

      I think that Perry is simply to boring to talk about anything else. Anyone who’s heard the song “Firework” knows that her fling with Brand was the most interesting thing she’s done in her career.

      If she doesn’t whine about Brand, she won’t get interviews anymore. Because, why else would anyone care about Katy Perry?

  12. Jayna says:

    She’s right, she is no Madonna. She can’t dance and really only does a few basic moves. Her vocal tone is harsh, unlike Madonna, who wasn’t a great singer, had a pretty tone to her voice. Although, Katy’s last tour she sounded decent with all her backing vocals.

    Did anyone see Katy on IHeartRadio two-day concert series with her little mini concert a few weeks ago? It was horrible vocally, even worse than usual. Even her fans admitted it. She also sounded winded. Justin Timberlake’s 45-minute concert was simply amazing, put his VMA performance to shame, and the 15-piece band was like a wall of sound, stunning. Check the performances out on YouTube. Drake was fantastic also.

  13. Adrien says:

    John Mayer is an excellent guitarist. I’ll give him that. He makes enjoyable background music. His songs are nice to listen to while driving or shopping at Walmart. But he’s not really a good songwriter. I know someone who misheard the lyrics to his popular songs and her made up versions are a lot better than the actual lyrics.

  14. Bananapants says:

    Boring. Yawn. I don’t understand why she gets so much press.

  15. *Laowai* says:

    Cry me a river, Katy. She has been bitching and moaning about how ‘mean’ he has been to her for longer than they were together.

    He has, for the most part, played the gentleman in their split. I’m sure she thinks that Meyer will treat her better when they inevitably don’t make it…but no one else does.

    I’m sure she thinks that she is winning at some game with him. She actually looks quite pathetic.

    As for the rest of the interview:

    “Honestly, I’m just masquerading as a pop star”

    We know, honey. We know.

  16. Scarlett says:

    @Adrien O please give us your friend’s version.
    Scarlett xoxoxo

  17. Lucrezia says:

    Any bets on a low-end gossip rag doing a little bit of creative editing, and coming up with the headline: “John Mayer in bed: the 10 minute wonder”?

  18. missanne says:

    John Mayer is a brilliant blues guitarist and lyricist, theres more to him than “youre body is a wonderland”, people. But you just continue having an opinion that someone told you to have. awesome.

    • Anon33 says:

      Ahahahahahahahahahahahahaha come on now. “Brilliant blues guitarist?” Ever heard of Eric Clapton??!!? Muddy Waters? Jimmy Page? Robert Johnson? Pete Townsend?

      I’ve hated John Mayer and his crappy frat music since day one. Since his first ever single in 2002, well before your body is a wonderland came out. No one told me to have this opinion. It’s one I came to quite easily after listening to his drivel.

      • Scarlet Vixen says:

        Anon, if all you’ve listened to was his first album, which was pop, I can see how you would scoff at someone saying he’s a brilliant blues guitar player. However, he’s gone gradually further into blues and away from mainstream pop over the course of his career. Anyone who’s listened to some of his live blues stuff or heard him play with his John Mayer Trio would be able to admit that while the guy is a total douche he is a very talented blues composer & guitar player. Not all douches are talentless uneducated morons. Unfortunately some of them are intelligent & talented. John Mayer happens to be one of them. Come to think of it, pretty much every amazing musician I’ve dated has been a douche (damn trumpet players-I’ve always been a sucker for those cocky jackasses). I’m not forgiving Mayer’s douchiness, just saying that he really is an extremely talented guy.

      • Roxy says:

        Anon, you sound very limited to your exposure to John Mayer’s music and blues altogether. Please listen to The John Mayer Trio, Continuum, or Born and Raised. Basing an artist soley on their first album is closed-minded. He has evolved and truly is a great musician. He is one of the most talented guitarist out there. You seem to be basing your opinions on John Mayer’s relationships, rather than his actual music. Clapton was a huge womanizer too! That doesn’t detract from his talent. Geez, people!

    • cheshire cat says:

      agreed! i am not a huge fan but I acknowledge his talent & definitely think he is an interesting fellow: I have dated worse so I give him no grief.
      fun fact: about 10 years ago mayer played an amphitheater in atlanta, selling it out. the guy I was dating at the time was also a musician & friends with a guy who had helped write ‘room for squares’. anyway, we were hanging out & got a phone call mayer was playing an ‘after party’ at the rock & roll bar… were we coming? we ended up going & hanging out but the best part of the evening was when mayer came up to me at the bar & was like, ‘hey – I don’t know if you saw me looking at you when I was playing but I think you are incredibly beautiful & we could really have something. you feel that? that is chemistry…’ I politely chatted & then declined his advances – but in retrospect, should have just done him – the guy I was dating turned into an even worse douchebag! at least I got a drink & a good story out of it – however, I’m a smart girl… if I’d been thinking i could have played that part even better & mind controlled him! ;)

    • TheOriginalKitten says:

      Oh GOOD LORD.

      Wanna hear a brilliant blues guitarist and singer? Listen to Brittany Howard of Alabama Shakes. In fact, listen to the depth and soul of a band like Alabama Shakes and then listen to the watered-down whiney corporate rock that is Jon Mayer and then maybe you’ll get the difference.

    • The Original G says:

      Mayer is an actual musician, and a good enough one to know that Katy isn’t. In fact, isn’t her music just the sort of thing he despises?

      But I guess they both need fodder for their next albums

    • MistyNinja says:

      Give me proof. I want proof of his talents. The Black Keys make this guy look like a tiny little turd in a diaper.

    • renie says:

      Same with katy. More there than u think.

  19. Algernon says:

    Here is all I know about these two people:

    Russell Brand is serious about his sobriety.

    Katy Perry still likes to go out and get sloppy at parties.

    Both of those things are fine, but they do not mix. Knowing nothing else about them (I couldn’t hum along to a Katy Perry song to save my life; not sure I’d even recognize one on the radio), I was not surprised their marriage did not work out.

  20. trudy221 says:

    I don’t know any of these people but from what I can tell, Brand is a guy who had issues, has tried to deal with them, and can probably be difficult at times, but all in all, I’m not horribly offended by him.

    John Mayer on the other hand is a JERK. On many levels, in many ways.

    So. . . . if Perry is still this distraught over her break-up with Brand, then when she and Mayer finally end, her reaction is going to be EPIC!!!! We will be hearing about it until she’s 65.

    PS. . . . how sad is Brand that he ever hooked up with this lady. She’s making Taylor Swift look really good right now.

  21. Gretchen says:

    Cher from Clueless called, she wants her outfit back

  22. MooHoo says:

    It’s not that Madonna won’t pass the baton to you Katy, it’s that you will never, ever have the quantity and quality of catchy pop songs that have been the foundation of Madonna’s mega success for over 30 years.

  23. Bridget says:

    I remember back when Russel amd Katy were imploding, and she spent Christmas in Hawaii without him and was papped frolicking in the water with no wedding ring. The message was clear to anyone with eyes – Katy was trying to play hardball – so for her to complain about Russel breaking up via text is disengenuous because she’s totally glossing over her own bad behavior.

    I just can’t get behind this lame attempt at a female empowerment message coming from someone who partied her way through her marriage to a man deep in recovery.

    • Jayna says:

      I don’t get being a team anyone on the implosion of this marriage. It broke up for many reasons from both sides. After the marriage, he was off acting and she was on tour. He really made no effort to travel to her. I did watch her documentary and her pain was real. It did show her traveling on the one day off in between gigs to go see him, when she should be resting in between shows because he wasn’t coming to see her. It did show her depression when he ended it (although you weren’t told at the time that’s what it was, him ending it) and an absolute emotional mess before going on stage. And I’m sure on his side he had lost interest because of issues he felt from her, young, still partying. I just think this is two people at the height of their careers who fell in love but never should have married and the love affair would have ended naturally and gradually like many do when not around each other enough or when that first year of mad love wears off and not left with much in common.

      • Bridget says:

        Oh, I can think of a myriad of reasons of why it would be a truly terrible idea to marry Russell Brand. But my point is that Katy keeps trying to bang this drum about how wronged she was, how awful he treated her, how she’s empowered now, but just glosses over her own part in the downfall of that marriage. At this point she’s continued to write songs and give interviews on the subject for a longer period of time than she was married.

      • TG says:

        Everything you just wrote is exactly why Katy should not be dating John Mayer. If she was that depressed over a brief marriage/fling with Brand then she might never recover when Mayer eventually dumps her. She needs to learn to respect and value herself before she can be in a meaningful relationship.

    • kim says:

      Yup…katy may just be an energy sucker …

  24. Homegrrl says:

    I would agree her guys are intelligent, but supah dysfunctional romantically/relationship wise. I don’t understand why she’d want to be with a man who’s had so many sexual partner, it’s just not healthy on so many levels, ahem.

    The way Rusty handled the marriage/divorce was cruel. But as a recovering person, I am still attracted to one amped up type, but need calm and stability at the end of the day. I can’t seem to choose the right person either, so while i understand, he didn’t seem to for see the damage he could do to someone who took him seriously like KP.

  25. magpie says:

    She’s probably going on and on about Meyer being “a genius” cause she’s sick of hearing how smart Brand is.

    • Jayna says:

      No. All of John’s girls think he’s a genius because he’s talented but also because he’s that dark, tortured type that makes you feel like you are lucky they want you because they are hard to pin down. Remember Jessica saying she tried to be something she wasn’t to please him, darker, deeper in the way he wanted, and she realized that wasn’t who she was.

      • lrm says:

        I can’t believe I’m even commenting on this thread, let alone about J. Mayer, but anyway….(:
        Yes, and what’s interesting about Mayer [you mentioned Jessica Simpson specifically], is how he claims to *want* some deep, dark woman who ‘gets him’, but he continually chooses women who don’t have all that much going on ‘in there’-Aniston, Simpson, Perry….
        Very telling. He def. is not only a douche, but also wants to feel like/be the ‘smart one’ in his relationship; that’s a major power thing for him. He would not be able to handle a relationship with an actually ‘deep, dark’ woman who challenged him on any level. This way, he gets to be in control/in charge, AND never have to change, grow, acommodate anyone or anything,etc.

        As for his and her music-both are passable, as in, i don’t hate it. And I’ve enjoyed Mayer’s stuff earlier on in his career, before he became celebrity blog fodder. He’s good but not ah-mazing…..and as far as pop lyrics, they can be pretty good, IMO. Someone called it frat boy music-that’s right on point, but then again, so is Dave Matthews, who is talented but also someone I never really thought was ‘as amazing’ as they say. And every other freakin’ song on the radio was a DM song for like 10 years straight.

    • The Original G says:

      I agree with magpie. She’s trying to one-up Brand.

  26. Madriani's Girl says:

    “Katy is surprised by her own success”. So is everyone else, honey. You are minimally talented.

    “He literally is a genius, as is evident from his songwriting.” Sure because “One pair of candy lips and your bubblegum tongue,” is soooooo deep. Literally, because no one EVER overuses that word nowadays.

  27. tifzlan says:

    “I’ll probably turn more into a Joni Mitchell”

    No, bitch. No. Also, i am a huge fan of Judy Garland and just, sigh. Now THAT was talent, despite all her personal troubles.

  28. kim says:

    Love the clueless inspired outfits! Totally cher and Dionne! The perfume? Not so much. It smells cheap and like that alcohol they put into cheap body sprays. So that will not be on any wish list for me.

  29. Ella says:

    Agree with everyone that she needs to stop milking the divorce for publicity. Who really cares how he ended it? I mean, is there a “nice” way to ask for divorce? Even if he had handled it differently, it still would’ve been painful on both sides. The end result would be the same: no more Katy and Rusty. Breakups happen every day, and yet she’s acting like she’s the only one who’s ever endured something so horrific.

    Also, a point of clarification, since I keep seeing it come up everywhere that the moment Russell divorced her is in the movie: No, it’s not. That part where she gets a text from him & is crying? That was filmed in Brazil on her tour, a couple months before they actually broke up.

    Also, the divorce papers on TMZ, which are still online for anyone to see, are dated Dec 30, so I don’t know why she keeps claiming he texted her “on New Year’s Eve” saying he wanted a divorce. Maybe she thinks it sounds better that way.

  30. Jazz says:

    She needs to shut the hell up about Russell Brand already. Those two were f*ck buddies who never should of gotten married in the first place.

  31. Virgilia Coriolanus says:

    What the f— is she complaining about? From what I got out of their marriage was that they barely saw/spent time with each other, and that when they did, it was basically to meet up in a hotel room for a few days and have sex.

    He didn’t take ANY of her money, even though they didn’t have a prenup. He didn’t talk shit about her before or after the divorce (beyond cracking a few jokes about him being single)–he could’ve given an interview complaining about how insensitive SHE was during the whole thing, and no matter how tacky I think that is, I would’ve agreed with him.

    Who the hell signs their divorce papers with a smiley face? Apparently a grown ass woman does.

    I mean, really Katy? Is your album doing that bad that you have to trash talk your ex, who has said nothing bad about you? Based on his actions after the divorce, he would’ve been my best friend. Any dude who walks away from that much money is good in my book.

  32. Kosmos says:

    Obviously Brand did not work for her as a relationship in the end, and breakups can be devastating, but people heal, eventually, and she will, too. I feel perplexed, too, as to why she would choose John Mayer as her next mate, given his reputation and issues with women, geez. Even though they may be (mostly) happy together now, will it last? Probably not, but I really would like to see Katy with someone stable and able to deal with her career. It may not be John in the end, for the long haul.

  33. pwal says:

    Anyway else thinks that John Mayer is the answer to Lainey’s latest blind (fcuking through an underwear hole)? Sure, there are other douchebags out there, like Adam Levine and James Franco, but neither of them have dated real names like Mayer has.

  34. Jayna says:

    Here’s Katy’s song from her album she wrote on feeling suicidal after breaking up. She previewed it live at iTunes Festival today, By the Grace of God, during a little mini concert. Is it me or do the lyrics sound contrived?


  35. Amanda G says:

    I like her songs, but I hate her voice and I wish someone else sang them. I also think she has a lot of growing up to do…which is sad because she’s nearing 30.

  36. Naddie says:

    I wonder if she’s as stupid as she seems. Her facial expressions on photos are ridiculous and at some pictures there’s so much make up that she looks like an ugly doll, when she’s actually gorgeous.

  37. eliza says:

    K and J are both marginally talented and believe their own as well as each other’s hype. They are perfect together. And if they stay together, then we are safe from them poisoning other waters. Now if only we could stop them from pro-creating…

  38. kibbles says:

    This is one of her most beautiful photoshoots. I like the natural look on her because she is naturally pretty and doesn’t need to wear so much makeup and outrageous outfits to prove it. I really wish she would go for the natural ethereal look more often.

  39. Andrea says:

    I am glad I am not the only one who thinks I could be easily charmed by Russell brand but laugh in the face of John Mayer if he ever tried to “charm” me. He comes off as that Italian guy at the bar who is full of himself and thinks he can get any woman. Yes, he has gotten a lot of women, but every woman he has dated, I have questioned them afterwards. John Mayer is a douche. Russell brand > John Mayer any day. Katy Perry needs to stop whining. I will laugh if she marries John Mayer btw.

  40. Leah says:

    I am offended that she is comparing herself to Joni Mitchell. Joni is the genius not mayer. Mayer is a good guitarist but not an original, not a game changer like Joni. He is playing and making music others have already done better than him a long time ago.