Octomom Nadya Suleman has a new video blog up on Radaronline. MSNBC’s the Scoop had some advance details, claiming that Suleman’s kids were punching and biting her, and I wanted to wait until the video was available until reporting this. It really wasn’t that bad. It shows her autistic son, Aidan, trying to get her attention by squeezing her neck, holding her hair, and trying to bug her. She handled it well and soothed her son. The more videos I see of this woman the more human she seems. I still don’t like her, but I’m not as outraged as I first was when she hit the scene.

Proud to be paying for own home, getting off food stamps
Nadya told Radar that she’s getting a new home, a 2,8000 square foot house with four bedrooms. She was proud of the fact that she paid for it herself, likely with all the easy money she’s getting from interviews and photo licensing. She also talked about the “welfare” issue, saying that it was technically true when she claimed she doesn’t get welfare because food stamps aren’t considered welfare. She also seemed proud that she’s about to get off of food stamps and all government assistance, something that may not have been possible for her if she just didn’t have a record-setting number of babies. The home where Nadya was living with her mother is set to go up for auction on Thursday due to ten months of missed mortgage payments.

Calls it a “lie” that she turned down free nursing care for want of a reality show
Despite the way she seems to court the press, in yesterday’s video blog Nadya said it’s a “lie” that she turned down free 24 hour nursing care because she was hoping for a reality show. She said it was more about the fact that she would have had to bring her children to a different area and climate to take advantage of the services and that she considered it but didn’t want to uproot her family. She is instead working with volunteers at her children’s school, and said that the other mothers there understand her situation. Nadya kind of shows her slippery side when talking about the reality show, saying on one hand that it’s “exploitation,” but on the other that she wouldn’t rule out some kind of “documentary-style” show. I bet that documentary involves a high six figure amount.

Fears “feeling like a failure as a mother”
Radar also has scanned pages from Nadya’s diary, in which her thoughts are scrawled on yellow legal pads. It includes such revelations as “I fear feeling like a failure as a mother; that my choice to have another child, after 6 already, was a sign of poor judgement. Maybe I never should have made that decision in the first place. Nevertheless, I know how much I love my kids I would never intentionally do anything to hurt them. Did my choice to have another (let alone another 8!) hurt them in ways I will never understand? Am I a failure as a mom?”

Note that she doesn’t call herself a failure, just that she’s questioning it. This was written after her interview with Dr. Phil and it sounds more like she’s trying to ingratiate herself to the public based on their negative perception of her than experiencing a smidgen of self awareness. In Nadya’s world, everything is fine and her behavior is always justified.

Cops were called to her home 8 times in the past year, has former CPS investigation
TMZ has details about a former complaint against Nadya by a neighbor to Child Protective Services last summer. The neighbor claimed that the kids were not clean or fed, and the case was closed as “unfounded.” The cops were also called to her home eight times in the past year.

Nadya told Radar she’s not afraid of losing any of her children as she’s doing what she needs to do and working with the agencies. She’s probably right. She loves her kids and is providing for them in her own warped way in which everything is always ok and she just doesn’t understand why she can’t have as many as she wants.

Nadya is shown out with her spokesperson on 3/2/09. She went to a local car shop to have her windows tinted while a nanny watched her children. Credit: Fame