Dwayne Johnson on his multiple bouts with depression: ‘I was all cried out’

Dwayne Johnson

My boyfriend, Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson, covers this week’s issue of Hollywood Reporter. He is — for better or worse — the king of trash cinema and the go-to hunk for flagging franchises. The magazine describes him as having “the wit of Willis, the strength of Schwarzenegger, the heart of Stallone.” Yep. The Rock is the action hero of our generation. He’s got it all, and his charisma and star power will carry him to the ends of the earth. As long as, you know, the upcoming Hercules movie doesn’t kickstart the apocalypse. That movie looks awful, but it will at least be better than the Kellan Lutz version.

This interview is kind of depressing but ultimately uplifting. The Rock talks about his low periods in life, beginning with a childhood full of money problems and other assorted turmoil. Plus three episodes of major depression in his adult life. Can you imagine The Rock crying? He shed a single tear in The Game Plan, but the thought of him curled up in fetal position makes my heart break. Here are some excerpts:

His difficult childhood: “I remember it as if it were yesterday. We were living in an efficiency that cost $120 a week. We come home, and there’s a padlock on the door and an eviction notice. My mom starts bawling. She just started crying and breaking down. ‘Where are we going to live? What are we going to do?’ That was the tipping point. It was about, ‘What can I control with these two hands?’ The only thing I could do was train and build my body. The successful men I knew were men who built their bodies.”

His 1st of 3 depressions over a football injury: “I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t know why I didn’t want to do anything. I had never experienced anything like that. I didn’t want to do a thing. I didn’t want to go anywhere. I was crying constantly. Eventually you reach a point where you are all cried out.”

His second depression: “You hear the words you never want to hear as a player: ‘Coach wants to see you. Bring your playbook.’ There was no injury. It’s just, ‘That’s it. You’re not good enough.’ That was very sobering. The dreams I had, they’re dashed. There is no more football. My relationship was crushed. That was my absolute worst time. I looked in my pocket, and I had seven bucks. Wow. Seven bucks to my name.”

Life as a pro wrestler: “There are two terms in wrestling. Baby face is your hero, heel is your villain. I had no choice but to go heel. I loved it. I loved the showmanship, and I loved the theatricality. It was so entertaining and over-the-top, and I was always mesmerized by these guys.”

Leaving wrestling for movies: “I was told that I had to conform to a standard in Hollywood that would beget me more work, better roles. Which meant I had to stop going to the gym, which meant I couldn’t be as big, which meant you had to distance yourself from wrestling. You essentially had to deconstruct yourself.”

He fired his agents after Tooth Fairy: “It just dawned on me: Change has to happen. It reached a point of, ‘I’m not feeling authentic.’ I felt there were bigger and better opportunities. I also felt there was franchise potential, hopefully multiple franchises in every genre — whether drama or comedy or action-comedy.”

His 3rd depression after divorce: “Once I manned up and became accountable for the mess I was in, that’s when it all hit me. What kind of dad does this make me? What kind of man will I now become? Failing at marriage and as a husband was a heavy thing, and divorce had that special way of knocking me on my ass.”

On Paul Walker’s death: “I was driving with Lauren when she immediately turned very quiet and was looking at me, studying, wondering if I knew. I pulled over and looked at my messages and had a moment where I just caught my breath. We said a prayer right then to give his daughter strength — because we had talked about our daughters. That’s what we would talk about. Both of us were divorced, and we talked about the power of being a dad and the strong connection of a dad and his girl. Then once we got home, we started bawling.”

His favorite tattoo: “The warrior is over my heart, which is the overall sentiment.”

He wants to be a global movie star: “What do I want? I want the world. I grew up where, when a door closed, a window didn’t open. The only thing I had was cracks. I’d do everything to get through those cracks — scratch, claw, bite, push, bleed. Now the opportunity is here. The door is wide open and it’s as big as a garage.”

[From Hollywood Reporter]

The Rock just spoke to The Mail last night on the red carpet in Sydney. When asked if his depression could return, he said, “[I] hope not, but life is unpredictable. I like to use the hard times in the past to motivate me today.” He also admitted to taking a shot or two of tequila every night before bed. With that physique!

It sounds like The Rock got over his divorce depression. He’s been divorced for several years and has been dating singer Lauren Hashlan for about two years. Of Lauren, he told People, “I’m a lucky son of a bitch.” She’s the lucky one! The Rock knows how to take care of a woman.

If work ethic is anything, then The Rock will continue to succeed in movies. He’s also terribly devoted to fitness. The HR story says he gets up at 4 a.m. every day to do 30 minutes of cardio before breakfast. Then he moves onto weights for god knows how long. Hours probably. He eats a total of six meals per day, and I believe it. Here are some gorgeous pictures from the HR shoot. The Rock gets moody and happy for your viewing pleasure.

Dwayne Johnson

Dwayne Johnson

Photos courtesy of Hollywood Reporter

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  1. eliza says:

    I read this article last evening and loved what he had to say. I also love the relationship he has with his ex wife and her husband.

    He, in my opinion, is an awesome and genuine guy. Seems humble and hard working.

    I love his openess about depression and the work he put into overcoming obstacles.

    Totally a fan of this man.

    • doofus says:

      “Totally a fan of this man.”

      me, too! I smell what the Rock is cookin’!

    • Erinn says:

      He’s completely and utterly won me over now.

      It really means a lot to those who suffer from depression to hear a big, seemingly extremely happy and successful guy going through the same kind of things you are. And he didn’t skirt around it. He addressed it. I think that’s incredibly fantastic of him.

      • aims says:

        As a person who has had a depression problem for a good chunk of my life, it’s nice to hear other people talk about it. Depression can knock you on your ass if you don’t take care of it. There shouldn’t be a stigma attached to it or guilt. It’s very real and can be debilitating.

      • GoodNamesAllTaken says:

        Totally agree with both of you.

      • LadyMacbeth ex Hiddles F. says:

        I really appreciated what he had to say about depression and he also addressed it clearly. An inspiration. I already liked him a lot since his wrestling days (when I was living in Florida I used to drive along his huge villa’s park…) but he seems such a genuine guy that he grew on me… Well done Mr. The Rock.

    • Trillion says:

      I’m glad to see that a man (and one who probably represents masculinity to many) is speaking openly about crying and having emotions. This is a good thing. Ever since I saw him perform in drag on SNL, I knew that even though he’s cheesy, he’s alright. Yeah, I’m a fan.

      • Santolina says:

        Yes, he’s a role model for what it is to be a real man, comfortable in his skin, accepting of his emotions and owning his vulnerability. Bless him.

      • Lauraq says:

        That’s exactly what I was thinking. A big, beefy, manly man talking openly about bawling his eyes out is touching and inspiring. Sometimes you just need to cry your eyes out.
        (BTW, my fiancee cries whenever he feels like it-including at the end of Angels in the Outfield-but it does bother me a little bit when he cries when we’re fighting. My ex used crying to manipulate me, so it’s taking time to realize that he’s just genuinely sad).

  2. Ag says:

    i’m not a fan of his movies, but he seems like a lovely man. glad he’s better and speaking out about what many still sadly consider a taboo.

    • Kiddo says:

      I feel exactly the same. I don’t have any interest in his films, but he does seem like a sweetie.

  3. Mia4S says:

    I have a real soft spot for him. He knows his Hollywood niche and does it well. No weird vanity projects or blabbering about future Oscars. Seems like a nice guy too. I wish him continued health, depression is ruthless.

    • kri says:

      Wow. I had no idea. Of course, he is amazing to look at, and I knew he must have a will of iron to get that body. He sounds like a lovely man, and I admire how honest he was in this interview. Not everyone speaks so authentically about things that hurt them, and certainly not alot of stars let you see vulnerability. I’m impressed.

  4. LadyMTL says:

    I follow him on Twitter and I can so believe the 4 AM workouts. I get up at 5:45 and sometimes he’s already Tweeted a few times by then, lol. And yeah, he really does seem like a nice guy, the kind of person I’d love to hang out with.

    • Chicagogurl says:

      Swoon! I adore him. His twitter is entertaining. He’s a fun guy and seems like he’s a good person and father. I hope Hercules is a big success for him.

  5. elo says:

    I love that a man is speaking out about his depression. Usually women have more freedom to talk about emotions and such. He looks handsome and seems like a good guy. I want good things for him.

  6. bella says:

    i waited in line about 15 yrs. ago with my 11 yr. old son in the beating, hot sun for 2 hrs. so that my son could get his can of spaghetti o’s signed by the rock.
    i had no idea who he was, except that both of my sons were huge fans.
    i nearly dropped to the floor with weak knees when we got up to this man…he is incredibly beautiful, and, yes, strikes one as entirely genuine and kind.
    my son couldn’t speak, so dwayne extended his hand to me…and i explained that my son wanted his autograph on the can of spaghetti.
    seeing how star struck my son was, dwayne got down on his knee to be at eye level with my son and spoke to him softly, looking straight into his eyes.
    very, very kind and self-aware…he knew how much seeing him meant to my son.
    i wish him nothing but the best…

    • Rae says:

      That’s a lovely story. I’m glad your son has that memory, and I’m happy to know that our public perception of The Rock isn’t totally off base.

      • bella says:

        my son, now a grown young man, speaks about the memory often.
        the authenticity he showed my son was remarkable and that’s what he remembers…
        and kids are good barometers on character!

    • TQB says:

      Great story! I watched WWF (or whatever it’s called now) for 2 years because of him. I even have a Rock t-shirt somewhere. He took that role to another level – the commitment, the energy. It’s so interesting to hear him speak about what he had to do to go Hollywood. Of course, it was a great decision but it’s nice to hear him speak about it with a little regret and sadness for leaving behind that zany world that treated him so well.

    • GoodNamesAllTaken says:

      How sweet. I love that story.

  7. QQ says:

    I dont go watch his movies but he always comes off to me as Very Charming, like Hugh Jackman in that they know what the job entails and they do it graciously and enthusiastically

  8. Penelope says:

    God he’s gorgeous inside and out. Sigh.

  9. Olenna says:

    I just love this guy. Wish he’d been my Tooth Fairy.

  10. BooBooLaRue says:

    I had no idea what a genuine man he is. Don’t see his movies, but I may now, just because. Wow.

  11. GiGi says:

    He’s just great. All around… I’m not a big fan of that huge, jacked up look… but he’s pretty hot, regardless.

  12. GeeMoney says:

    Like him, like his movies. He seems like a good guy.

  13. NorthernGirl_20 says:

    I have the biggest crush on him, ever since I read his autobiography a good 13 years ago. My ex-boyfriend was a big wrestling fan and he LOVED The Rock.. even bought a photograph and put it up in our living room.

    I would comfort him .. lol.. He’s so hot and sexy and sweet and nice..

  14. MissMary says:

    He’s my mom’s pretend boyfriend, lol. I have to call her whenever I see an article about him and let her know he’s in the media (it’s adorable–she’s a 64 year old woman with a schoolgirl crush on him–I’m fairly sure she has magazine clippings on a posterboard in her closet). He always sounds like such a sweet, genuine man and I think it’s wonderful he is being so open about his depression, esp in a culture where men are often chided about “weakness”, esp. men who are depicted as “hard” and “tough guys.”

  15. Snowflake says:

    omg, I love the rock! He seems so sweet, genuine and smart. And omg he is so hot ! He is so f$cking fine!

  16. nicegirl says:

    I love this article and that he has big enough balls to come out and declare that living life with depression is hard for him, too. Thank goodness I am not the only one!

  17. Mikeyangel says:

    Yes ditto. Love him. Gorgeous.

  18. Eleonor says:

    I don’t like this kind of movies, so I’ve seen him only on redcarpet and gossip blogs, but his depression doesn’t surprise me, because I’ve read that former football players can suffer of depression because of their injuries, I’m sorry I can’t explain it very well.
    But you can read this.
    http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/555786

  19. Rusty Machine says:

    Good gracious. I don’t like super-muscly men, but good gawd that man is gorgeous. I forgot how beautiful he was. And thanks for reminding me about his big hands and desire to take care of a woman, Bedhead. Instant ovulation.

  20. Size Does Matter says:

    I feel the urge to comment two hundred times so this post gets the number it deserves. Love him.

  21. amara says:

    He is one sexy man, that is for sure!!!

  22. Grant says:

    Oh Dwayne. Come over here and let me love you back to life, you glorious, beautiful sex machine.

  23. peachcobblerby says:

    I don’t really enjoy those cheesy movies but.when he’s in them I love.them he exudes charm. He’s good at what he does and takes care of his business that’s really hot!

  24. joan says:

    He’s one of those talk show guests who radiates charisma and feels comfortable in his own skin [unlike, say, Tom Cruise]. So likeable.

    It would be interesting to see him in an old-fashioned romance film with someone like Vanessa Williams. They both have a quality of smart sexiness. I bet he could ACT in a romance. And it would be a thousand times more erotic than 50 Shades.

  25. mommak918 says:

    he is sooo so handsome. my husband knows I will tune in for his movies just to watch him. i dont listen to the words but just seeing him in action is quite nice. depression sucks. glad to see a man address it.

  26. Snowflake says:

    Hubba hubba hubba

  27. Jennface says:

    He’s such a likable guy. I really thought after “The Rundown” he was going to be the next big action star but it just didn’t happen. I really don’t watch his movies but if he gets back to those kinds of rolls that show off his sense of humor mixed with action, I would watch all of his movies.

  28. Godwina says:

    Yes. Funny, I’m not into big beefy guys, but the Rock and the Momoa Do. Me. In. Well, and young Orson Welles (giddyup!).

  29. melain says:

    Wow. I always liked him even if I didn’t like the movie. That true heart and humble spirit comes through in every role..even that one where he’s playing a hockey jerk. I wish this guy nothing but the best.