Demi Lovato would work out all day before her relapse

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Demi Lovato started off her year by performing at the Grammys, where she debuted a new song, “Anyone,” and then sang the National Anthem at the Super Bowl. She also recently posted a photo of a tattoo of doves and an angel she got in December to commemorate her spiritual awakening.

Demi is talking more about her health, too. She recently sat down with new mom Ashley Graham for Ashley’s Pretty Big Deal podcast, and talked about the connection between her eating disorder and her overdose:

Speaking with Ashley Graham on the model’s Pretty Big Deal podcast, Lovato, 27, said that she’s trying to take a new approach to her career after “running myself into the ground with workouts and extreme dieting.”

Lovato explained that she had “thought the past few years was recovery from an eating disorder, when it actually was just completely falling into it.”

The difference, she said, was that while her eating disorder symptoms were more visible in the past when she would binge and purge her food, “they weren’t as obvious” when she said she was in recovery — they just took on a different form in over exercising.

“When you don’t have people that know the signs around you … like, what I think I really needed was someone to come in and saying like, ‘Hey, I think you need to look into how much you’re working out,’ like, maybe three times a day is excessive for working out,” Lovato said. “Like, there were days when I lived at the gym, and I would take business meetings at the gym on my breaks from my workouts. And I’d be gross, but at least I didn’t have to leave and shower and I could go right back into my workout. I’d eat a meal, go workout, eat a meal, go workout. And it’s like, that’s just not happiness to me, that’s not freedom.”

Lovato said that she was still being pushed to maintain a certain body type, and that led to her overdose in July 2018.

[From People]

Demi's comment about thinking that she was recovering from her eating disorder and then realizing that she was "completely falling into it" remind me of what Aly Raisman said about her experience of recovering from trauma: “Some days I feel like I am moving forward and then the next day it feels like 3 steps back. Sometimes when I feel like I am beginning to heal from one part of my trauma, another memory pops up.” It’s incredibly frustrating to realize, as Demi did, that what you thought was a step in recovery actually wasn’t, and was harmful. However, the fact that Demi realized that obsessively exercising (to the point that she was taking meetings at her gym!), was actually a manifestation of her eating disorder is really important, because it enabled her to stop, step back, and realize that she was continuing to harm herself. I hope that she’s proud of herself, because that’s not an easy to thing to do.

Demi told Ashley that for her next album, she’s “not going to worry about” what she looks like. I hope that she continues to recover, and that she now has more people around her who are aware of the fact that her eating disorder might not present in the ways that they would typically expect. I also hope that she’s able to stay in this new mindset of being more accepting of her body and not worry about whether she “fits a certain mold.” Good for her for changing her thinking, of course, but that can be so hard to put into practice.

Here’s that interview:

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  1. Erinn says:

    I had suspected as much. I remember how deep she had gone with working out, and it seemed at the time like it was trading one method of controlling her body for another one, rather than being about health.

  2. Millenial says:

    In my personal experiences, I’ve found that sometimes people with addictions suffer from compulsive behavior in other areas as well. My ex was an alcoholic who would move from an alcohol addiction to an exercise addiction and back again, depending on where he was at in his life.

  3. Spicecake38 says:

    What she says reminds me slightly of what was covered here yesterday?I think regarding Ben Affleck and what he said in his page 6 piece-going from alcoholism to gambling and on and on..,
    I see something more than I would like to admit of myself in Demi and Ben talking abut addiction-substance or behavior,in that throughout my life I can see where I have some OCD tendencies/addictive personality,like I have over eaten,over dieted,over exercised,been compulsive with cleaning,shopping/spending (or even saving money)cigarettes ,sleeping-in the past-it’s like this compulsive desire to go all in or nothing so to speak ..As I’ve gotten older I’m much more relaxed but I can see this is something we just sort of have as part of our personality (some of us ,I mean )

  4. T says:

    Reading this really hits home for me. I’ve battled eating disorders or periods of disordered eating for almost my entire life. Most recent years, I’d think “Look how far I’ve come!” because the symptoms of my disordered eating weren’t about food as much as compulsive exercise. It’s hard to recognize when it comes back until you’re already entrenched in it. I wish nothing but the best for Demo on her recovery journey. She certainly deserves it.

  5. Thea says:

    Hmmm. Sometimes I wonder if I workout too much. I usually do one or two workouts a day – boot camp or spin, sometimes lagree, boxing, or yoga sculpt. I literally did three workouts today – boot camp, lagree, and yoga flow (but yoga flow is more like stretching).

    • Ellie says:

      Ay carumba!!!
      I mean, “too much” is subjective but that seems a helluva lot!

      When do you socialise or relax or unwind or do anything else??

      Are you working to achieve a goal, training for something, losing weight etc or is this just your normal life? What do you feel if you miss your workouts?